Monday

Why is communication such a difficult issue for me, in many aspects, right now?
Best friend called, partly to get some info, and feeling I could talk to her, I went on for a few min. I felt at 1 point she wasn't listening because something else was going on there then I'm told she needs to go. I don't like feeling people don't have time for me. I feel worse after she calls.

2011

I'm glad I started off the new year with zumba, which included some new catchy songs. I took a nice, long bath. Kinda bored now because I've been home all day, mainly on the computer except for meal with family and brief reading and nap. I think research for my trip to France is gonna be my prime procrastination culprit for the next 3 months.

Wish these pimples on my face would go away. My face broke out like whoah (1 more still coming on my chin), and I hoped they'd be more gone by the time bf got well. Oh well. I need to learn to manage stress better, c'est sur.

Last day of 2010

Looking back on this year, it was a difficult one but also a joyful one. Difficult because I struggled with unhappiness and stress due to working an unfulfilling call center job evening shift. Joyful because I was allowed to work normal business hours starting late April and in turn, had a better social life and in turn, met my boyfriend, who, right now at least, I feel could be the love of my life. And let's not forget a reason for joy was being laid off, yep, from the job I hated. Since then, it was been a bit difficult keeping busy without a regular schedule but I'm managing. It would be so much harder without the love and support of my boyfriend.

House to myself

Within an hour, I didn't like the quiet and felt lonely :(. Not sure why I thought it was a good idea, ha. It's ok. Must have noise, like international radio on iTunes. Now it's Craig Ferguson online, who I haven't watched since my work hours changed to 8am. I don't like to stay up that late and rarely watch tv.

Snowy day

It keeps snowing. I think snow is pretty but I dislike how it shuts one in. Good thing I'm in a cleaning mood.

I've been waking up ~3am every night briefly. Usually I sleep uninterrupted.

Today is Vicente's bday.

We almost could have lost another bird due to my sister's foolishness just now. She let our neighbors' labs into the house, and the puppy almost got Joey. Man oh man. This blog is like therapy for me, for real.

Hopeful trip to France

Yes, May (or June) would be a lot more ideal, warmer, sunnier weather but if my chief aim is to speak French, one can do that year-round :).
Gosh, I'm gonna have to buy a nice camera. An SLR like my sis' would be nice.

I'll be there before Easter :) (April 24). Bakeries and shops should have nice window displays.

Is it worth $150 in train fare to make it to Italy briefly to savor some good pasta, bread, gelato, and hopefully, ambiance? Genoa is the closest big city to my friend. I just know it's known for salami.

Oh, wonder if I should buy one of those small video cameras. We have a video cam but it's cheapo. If I'm gonna go, I want quality images. Because who knows the next time I'll be back.

Ok, nix that

I'm not used to writing much by hand anymore; my hand gets tired when I write in my journal. I like typing.

So... I think a trip to France is meant to be. I'm getting signs. Like today a Canadian teacher from my time in China uploaded pics of her time in France. I don't know what she's doing there currently with her Scandinavian boyfriend but she rarely uses Facebook. I also received the Junior Year in France alumnae bulletin today. And then Donna emailed me low fares on Iberia Airlines (cheaper than Air France!). These are from NYC, though, which is inconvenient. I will check how much from RIC but probably at least $100 more.

I am full. 2 nights in a row I went out to dinner with friends and had eyes bigger than my stomach. Why do I torture myself?