I don't feel like doing exercises in career books I checked out. I'm at my desk in my room now. Maybe because my sis is home from school this week, too, I wanted privacy. The keyboard I had (to avoid carpal tunnel) won't connect to my laptop.
Called in sick to work because I felt nauseous earlier. I'm fine now, but since I believe I had 2 days left, why not take advantage and use the time to job search? I need to create a list of 10 target companies. Right now I'm somewhat randomly trying to link with people who are in mutual groups on Linked In. Hope I'm not being way too cas in my greetings.
** An hour later-
That sick day was probably a mistake because I (nor my mom, who encouraged me to use it) did not know that in order to receive holiday (double) pay, one must work the day before and after; so that ruined my big money :(. I also don't really like 3 days off in a row, esp. with my sister around, because I get bored. When I called in, less than 3 hrs before my shift, I felt fine; it was kind of a precaution but more "take advantage" mindset. Another thing to think about is performance reviews and therefore, raises, are issued next month. Hopefully this doesn't affect. I called my coworker who I got a job in my dept to tell her what I learned; she was in IKEA in Northern VA shopping with her friend and roomie for stuff for their apart.
So now I know 'tis better to go in feeling so-so before a scheduled holiday and leave sick then risk losing double pay.
12/30/09
12/25/09
Christmas
I always feel at Christmas, "Wow, it's already come and gone." It usually seems anti-climatic for all the hype.
It was so hot in my grandparents' living room between the electric fireplace and a space heater. My dad started to doze off in the massage chair (without the massage going). I later took a short nap in it after using the massage; it was nice.
I wasn't expecting much in way of presents and didn't want unnecessary stuff, but like usual, I'm disappointed when I get few things. My mom didn't buy me anything. She's said to me and my sis for years now, "I need to take you shopping because I don't know what you like." But I am 24 now and earning money. I don't pay much at all for rent, so I should be grateful for that. She gave me money a few weeks ago before I went out shopping, and I came back with a nice, new brown weather-proof winter coat.
I gave my dad men's vitamins (which he doesn't usually take), "Holmes" brand sardines in mustard sauce and a nice dark choc bar. Gave my mom Sesame-covered cashews and also a nice dark choc bar. Couldn't think of anything else to give her (how sad is it that she's harder to buy for than my dad?), so my sis and I together gave them a gift certif to a nice restaurant for a date. Giving foodstuffs to each other is not uncommon for us; we give practical, cheap things! I gave my sis a Burt's Bees peppermint body products set (which I bought cheaper than at Target; score) and pineapple-scented lotion I figured she'd like. She felt bad she hadn't bought anything for us, esp. me, and said she wants to get me something later. I don't mind, and it's not her fault because she can't drive herself, our mom rarely takes her shopping, and when we went shopping this week, she couldn't well hide something from me.
It's raining a lot.. the snow will melt away. My sis drove the first 45 min home from grandparents,' and was good my dad took over when he did because it started to rain harder, with puddles on the side of the route that my mom feared would make us hydroplane. Then bad fog.
Tomorrow, per my suggestion, we will see 'up in the air," the new, highly-acclaimed film with George Clooney. 1/2 price tickets with Visa Signature, whose offer with Fandango ends this month, I think. We have a coupon to the diner near my work, so can have lunch there after. Then I work.. in turns of going out, though, I haven't been in touch with the peeps who I usually go out with; we don't have much in common.
Need to get off this damn schedule and live closer to downtown, then I can meet more similar people. My grandma said jokingly, in a way, that she needed to find me a boy because I'm wasting away! I used to be offended by comments like that, that I'm still unattached, but I definitely have an excuse with my schedule (and it sucks). Guten nacht!
It was so hot in my grandparents' living room between the electric fireplace and a space heater. My dad started to doze off in the massage chair (without the massage going). I later took a short nap in it after using the massage; it was nice.
I wasn't expecting much in way of presents and didn't want unnecessary stuff, but like usual, I'm disappointed when I get few things. My mom didn't buy me anything. She's said to me and my sis for years now, "I need to take you shopping because I don't know what you like." But I am 24 now and earning money. I don't pay much at all for rent, so I should be grateful for that. She gave me money a few weeks ago before I went out shopping, and I came back with a nice, new brown weather-proof winter coat.
I gave my dad men's vitamins (which he doesn't usually take), "Holmes" brand sardines in mustard sauce and a nice dark choc bar. Gave my mom Sesame-covered cashews and also a nice dark choc bar. Couldn't think of anything else to give her (how sad is it that she's harder to buy for than my dad?), so my sis and I together gave them a gift certif to a nice restaurant for a date. Giving foodstuffs to each other is not uncommon for us; we give practical, cheap things! I gave my sis a Burt's Bees peppermint body products set (which I bought cheaper than at Target; score) and pineapple-scented lotion I figured she'd like. She felt bad she hadn't bought anything for us, esp. me, and said she wants to get me something later. I don't mind, and it's not her fault because she can't drive herself, our mom rarely takes her shopping, and when we went shopping this week, she couldn't well hide something from me.
It's raining a lot.. the snow will melt away. My sis drove the first 45 min home from grandparents,' and was good my dad took over when he did because it started to rain harder, with puddles on the side of the route that my mom feared would make us hydroplane. Then bad fog.
Tomorrow, per my suggestion, we will see 'up in the air," the new, highly-acclaimed film with George Clooney. 1/2 price tickets with Visa Signature, whose offer with Fandango ends this month, I think. We have a coupon to the diner near my work, so can have lunch there after. Then I work.. in turns of going out, though, I haven't been in touch with the peeps who I usually go out with; we don't have much in common.
Need to get off this damn schedule and live closer to downtown, then I can meet more similar people. My grandma said jokingly, in a way, that she needed to find me a boy because I'm wasting away! I used to be offended by comments like that, that I'm still unattached, but I definitely have an excuse with my schedule (and it sucks). Guten nacht!
12/24/09
Christmas Eve
can't believe it's already Christmas again. In a pessimistic view, I could say this year was a waste of my 24 yr-old youth but then again, things could be worse. The main line is, I started looking for jobs 5+ months ago, but not actively enough. I guess what I dislike is the need to connect with people in order to get a job. Sure, I might make some good long-term connections but ugh, seems tedious.
Yday I rushed out the door to my apt and forgot my work badge and cell. Got to work and realized I couldn't even text my coworker to ask her to let me in. I sat a\outside then was told by someone that the official thing to do when having forgotten one's badge is to get a temporary one at the front desk, which I did. That worked out, except when I went to pee after finishing at 1am (I had had to call Japan, and we had been busy, short-handed): I forgot the badge and was locked out of the main area (my keys inside). Someone who works in another area said she didn't know me, therefore couldn't let me in, but would get a supervisor. Then the security guards saw me and asked "You work here?" Ugh, we aren't that many at night shift; so annoying. Not that I think the security guards are intelligent but I want to work at a place that is either small enough for people to recognize me or big enough where anonymity is the norm.
I said at work that I wish we could have candles on Christmas eve because that's what I associate with this day: in the past going to the midnight service where the lights are turned out at the end, and everyone sings "Silent night."
Yday I rushed out the door to my apt and forgot my work badge and cell. Got to work and realized I couldn't even text my coworker to ask her to let me in. I sat a\outside then was told by someone that the official thing to do when having forgotten one's badge is to get a temporary one at the front desk, which I did. That worked out, except when I went to pee after finishing at 1am (I had had to call Japan, and we had been busy, short-handed): I forgot the badge and was locked out of the main area (my keys inside). Someone who works in another area said she didn't know me, therefore couldn't let me in, but would get a supervisor. Then the security guards saw me and asked "You work here?" Ugh, we aren't that many at night shift; so annoying. Not that I think the security guards are intelligent but I want to work at a place that is either small enough for people to recognize me or big enough where anonymity is the norm.
I said at work that I wish we could have candles on Christmas eve because that's what I associate with this day: in the past going to the midnight service where the lights are turned out at the end, and everyone sings "Silent night."
12/19/09
Snowed in
A bit annoyed the snow fell on my 3-day weekend off. It was nice the first half of the day then boredom and an exchange between me and my sis dampened my mood. I'm in my room on my laptop; don't feel I can look for jobs on my bed or at my desk. I need to clear stuff out of my room but overall, I'm sick of the layout of my room, doesn't inspire me.
I know I've written this before, yet I keep forgetting because I have a hard time helping myself: things must change. I don't want to work Friday nights. Who goes out on Sunday nights? Sick, sick, sick of it. A change of scenery is what I really need.
I know I've written this before, yet I keep forgetting because I have a hard time helping myself: things must change. I don't want to work Friday nights. Who goes out on Sunday nights? Sick, sick, sick of it. A change of scenery is what I really need.
12/17/09
I'm going to a spa
I was kind-of annoyed more people didn't post more comments about the rest of my photos in California. Today I uploaded the lot of me posing with wax figures at Mme Tussaud's NY.
Today I made what is, I think, my first ever hair apt. They have 3 or 4 levels of stylists.. I'm going with the cheapest, $35, which is expensive to me. The place is called "Mango," an Aveda salon. On their website it says they give a massage and aromatic towel wrap and have comfortable, imported shampoo chairs. So basically what I had in China at a much higher cost. I thought of going shorter but when I washed my hair today, I remembered it is rather pretty at this length. Also, I saw my best friend and, even though we rarely see each nowadays, I don't want to have similar length hair as her, because I sometimes "copied" her in high school & because we were often together, people asked if we were twins! (My mom thinks that's crazy, we look nothing alike, and besides, I'm prettier). So I briefly regretted scheduling (and confirming! The automated machine called me to confirm it) the apt, but I've been stressed, it's the end of the year, I want a better start next year, and I deserve to be pampered.
This entry is full of run-ons.
I heard via text from a coworker that another coworker was fired. Apparently she didn't call in Sunday morning to say she wasn't coming in, and added to some other strikes against her, was the last straw. That's too bad. The coworker who told me this has an interview Friday. A month ago or more she expressed how dissatisfied she was with the job, and I thought, "It took her a lot shorter time to realize that than me!" She had an internship (though no longer a student) with an environmental org this semester. So I feel she will go soon (willingly), and I don't want to be much longer thereafter.
Today I made what is, I think, my first ever hair apt. They have 3 or 4 levels of stylists.. I'm going with the cheapest, $35, which is expensive to me. The place is called "Mango," an Aveda salon. On their website it says they give a massage and aromatic towel wrap and have comfortable, imported shampoo chairs. So basically what I had in China at a much higher cost. I thought of going shorter but when I washed my hair today, I remembered it is rather pretty at this length. Also, I saw my best friend and, even though we rarely see each nowadays, I don't want to have similar length hair as her, because I sometimes "copied" her in high school & because we were often together, people asked if we were twins! (My mom thinks that's crazy, we look nothing alike, and besides, I'm prettier). So I briefly regretted scheduling (and confirming! The automated machine called me to confirm it) the apt, but I've been stressed, it's the end of the year, I want a better start next year, and I deserve to be pampered.
This entry is full of run-ons.
I heard via text from a coworker that another coworker was fired. Apparently she didn't call in Sunday morning to say she wasn't coming in, and added to some other strikes against her, was the last straw. That's too bad. The coworker who told me this has an interview Friday. A month ago or more she expressed how dissatisfied she was with the job, and I thought, "It took her a lot shorter time to realize that than me!" She had an internship (though no longer a student) with an environmental org this semester. So I feel she will go soon (willingly), and I don't want to be much longer thereafter.
12/11/09
I'm off work on New Year's Eve
And work 2-10 that day for double pay :).
I had to do my annual performance review yday.. didn't quite know what to write. I remember asking my coworker last year, and she advised to BS. You want to write truthful things, but put yourself in a good light because this will weigh in on how much raise we receive.
I hadn't heard the Jungian philosophy that the people in your dreams are actually yourself. I was asked about my last dream, and in terms of symbolizing something (usually they seem so nonsensical), it was profound (I think). I dreampt last weekend that a friend and I went to DC. We had split ways for some reason, and I was waiting on the homebound bus for her. She was on steps (like the Capitol!) about to go down to the bus, but received a phone call, which made her miss the bus!
The next morning I was going to tell my friend she was in my dream and that it was a funny one. From the Jungian perspective, I am missing the bus, which could symbolize a good job and lifestyle, which I am lacking now. As to the phone, well, it's a means of communication, and I work on the phone (but a headset not a cell).
I had to do my annual performance review yday.. didn't quite know what to write. I remember asking my coworker last year, and she advised to BS. You want to write truthful things, but put yourself in a good light because this will weigh in on how much raise we receive.
I hadn't heard the Jungian philosophy that the people in your dreams are actually yourself. I was asked about my last dream, and in terms of symbolizing something (usually they seem so nonsensical), it was profound (I think). I dreampt last weekend that a friend and I went to DC. We had split ways for some reason, and I was waiting on the homebound bus for her. She was on steps (like the Capitol!) about to go down to the bus, but received a phone call, which made her miss the bus!
The next morning I was going to tell my friend she was in my dream and that it was a funny one. From the Jungian perspective, I am missing the bus, which could symbolize a good job and lifestyle, which I am lacking now. As to the phone, well, it's a means of communication, and I work on the phone (but a headset not a cell).
12/9/09
can I fly to Bhutan?
I don't know how to network..
I don't want to work 7 nights straight. I'm not excited about Christmas, not that I need be 2 weeks in advance, but when people who I won't see wish me happy holidays, it doesn't really have meaning to me. Someone said that's good I'm around family and friends this time of year, but I feel rather friendless right now on my work schedule, and am rather irritated by my family because I've lived with them for over a year.
I wish I had a fan in my room that ran for 30 min when going to sleep, then had a clock to start up again at 7:30am to block out noise when my sis is getting ready and stop before 9:00am. Today I woke up at 9:30 but because the fan is lulling, and I'm warm in my bed, I didn't want to get up til an hour later. I don't like that because I don't feel as productive; like to be up before 10am on weekdays unless I couldn't get to sleep til 4am.
I don't want to work 7 nights straight. I'm not excited about Christmas, not that I need be 2 weeks in advance, but when people who I won't see wish me happy holidays, it doesn't really have meaning to me. Someone said that's good I'm around family and friends this time of year, but I feel rather friendless right now on my work schedule, and am rather irritated by my family because I've lived with them for over a year.
I wish I had a fan in my room that ran for 30 min when going to sleep, then had a clock to start up again at 7:30am to block out noise when my sis is getting ready and stop before 9:00am. Today I woke up at 9:30 but because the fan is lulling, and I'm warm in my bed, I didn't want to get up til an hour later. I don't like that because I don't feel as productive; like to be up before 10am on weekdays unless I couldn't get to sleep til 4am.
12/8/09
Rethinking
Last week I decided, "I'm gonna move out" and replied to 2 Craigslist room ads. I couldn't have picked more opposite living situations: one (that I visited) is a 2bedroom house where the housemate would be gone most of the time (hence quiet) while the other is a 6 bedroom apt seeking a 6th female!
It's funny how people think they know you more than you know yourself: my friend in Cville, when I told her about the 6bedroom place, said that sounds perfect for me. .. I don't think I want 5 roommates; sounds silly after being at a women's college, but a little too much estrogen, dorm-like. She asked me when was I happiest, and I thought, "where I had multiple roommates, which was Paris."
But last night, which I've experienced before and decide to forget, was not good at work. I was fine 2 hrs after the situation, but just hated my job and how I can't handle it, self-preserve. Basically, I had to call a woman about tours to China that I researched. I wasn't going to volunteer that I lived there, but she asked me outright, and I couldn't lie. She's Russian, and her cute, stereotypical accent reminded me of my friend Sasha. I don't mean to generalize, but I feel Russians (like many cultures) will maximize the opportunity whenever possible. So she was so happy to hear I had first-hand experience in China, and therefore, made all sorts of other requests. When I looked over my notes after calming down, I realized she didn't request that much, and I gave myself plenty of time to complete it. I'm just sick of researching travel in Asia, specifically China. See, I want to talk to people about my travels, but not to clients, because then they will expect more of us (specifically me, since I'll have to do it).
I will know next time. I have to lie and could have said, "I've heard they are very interesting cities." It's not just that I didn't want to lie, it's probably also I don't like to disappoint and feel the service would sound better. But we're not paid enough to "break our necks" researching crap for clients, and customer service agents have to disappoint all the time, including for self-preservation.
It's funny how people think they know you more than you know yourself: my friend in Cville, when I told her about the 6bedroom place, said that sounds perfect for me. .. I don't think I want 5 roommates; sounds silly after being at a women's college, but a little too much estrogen, dorm-like. She asked me when was I happiest, and I thought, "where I had multiple roommates, which was Paris."
But last night, which I've experienced before and decide to forget, was not good at work. I was fine 2 hrs after the situation, but just hated my job and how I can't handle it, self-preserve. Basically, I had to call a woman about tours to China that I researched. I wasn't going to volunteer that I lived there, but she asked me outright, and I couldn't lie. She's Russian, and her cute, stereotypical accent reminded me of my friend Sasha. I don't mean to generalize, but I feel Russians (like many cultures) will maximize the opportunity whenever possible. So she was so happy to hear I had first-hand experience in China, and therefore, made all sorts of other requests. When I looked over my notes after calming down, I realized she didn't request that much, and I gave myself plenty of time to complete it. I'm just sick of researching travel in Asia, specifically China. See, I want to talk to people about my travels, but not to clients, because then they will expect more of us (specifically me, since I'll have to do it).
I will know next time. I have to lie and could have said, "I've heard they are very interesting cities." It's not just that I didn't want to lie, it's probably also I don't like to disappoint and feel the service would sound better. But we're not paid enough to "break our necks" researching crap for clients, and customer service agents have to disappoint all the time, including for self-preservation.
12/4/09
Sleeping pill
I was prescribed a sleeping pill to help me not stay up until 4am from my 4-midnight job. I took 1/2 like the doc said around 1am; I felt it hadn't worked, was still up at 3am, so took the other 1/2. I quickly felt the effect of that; slight headache. I woke up almost 9hrs later, groggy and still a headache. I thought I was gonna accomplish a lot today! Have to go to the post office to send my French and Norwegian friends presents. Guess no hair cut today or library.
12/3/09
Balmy December day in VA
I really like the Radio on iTunes. Right now I'm listening to a Celtic French radio station. It was listed in the "Ambient" category.
Walked to the dentist today since it's so nice and the office is less than a mile away. Then I went into the Tae Kwon do place that has a grand opening. If my sister wanted to take classes for 3 mo, it's half-price right now, and I could do a cardio class (whatever that consists of) mornings for free as a family member.
My best friend called during her lunch break. Was good to talk and let things out..
Looked at Clist room ads. I feel it's such a leap, I've never lived on my own in the States before, but it needs to be done. I received the fortune cookie fortune "A new environment makes all the difference" a while ago, and now have it taped to my wallet to remind me I need to change my environment to thrive.
Waiting until after my dentist apt to eat my sister's pasta dish with onions: smart. Eating it before the alumnae holiday dinner: not so smart. Oh well!
Walked to the dentist today since it's so nice and the office is less than a mile away. Then I went into the Tae Kwon do place that has a grand opening. If my sister wanted to take classes for 3 mo, it's half-price right now, and I could do a cardio class (whatever that consists of) mornings for free as a family member.
My best friend called during her lunch break. Was good to talk and let things out..
Looked at Clist room ads. I feel it's such a leap, I've never lived on my own in the States before, but it needs to be done. I received the fortune cookie fortune "A new environment makes all the difference" a while ago, and now have it taped to my wallet to remind me I need to change my environment to thrive.
Waiting until after my dentist apt to eat my sister's pasta dish with onions: smart. Eating it before the alumnae holiday dinner: not so smart. Oh well!
11/26/09
Tgiving Day
Fitting that the dictionary word of the day is "scrumptious."
Last night my shift ended at 8pm. It was rather nice to be there before 4pm. I didn't eat much before work, so made the smiley face potatoes and chicken "poppers" I store in the work freezer. I shared one with my pastor coworker because she, like me, doesn't consider our job a real job and hence, has a sarcastic and wry sense of humor.
Before work, cutting close, I looked at Babies R' Us website to see if they have the colored ring toy that I thought to give the 1 yr old girl my dept "adopted" for Angel Tree. It's only about $6, so decided to get a connecting shape toy, as well. (I had both of these as a child and saw my sis play with them years later; nostalgia).
I thought I'd leave work after 8pm, swim, do hydromassage and steamroom one last time on my last day of gym membership, but didn't leave until 9 and had plans to go to the nearby bar. I thought to go after the bar (past midnight) but that's technically the next day; missed my window of opportunity! So I want to join a yoga studio. There are a good # around; have to compare class times and price. I just need one with beginner's classes. It would be awesome if one had a steam and shower room, but I doubt it.
Last night my shift ended at 8pm. It was rather nice to be there before 4pm. I didn't eat much before work, so made the smiley face potatoes and chicken "poppers" I store in the work freezer. I shared one with my pastor coworker because she, like me, doesn't consider our job a real job and hence, has a sarcastic and wry sense of humor.
Before work, cutting close, I looked at Babies R' Us website to see if they have the colored ring toy that I thought to give the 1 yr old girl my dept "adopted" for Angel Tree. It's only about $6, so decided to get a connecting shape toy, as well. (I had both of these as a child and saw my sis play with them years later; nostalgia).
I thought I'd leave work after 8pm, swim, do hydromassage and steamroom one last time on my last day of gym membership, but didn't leave until 9 and had plans to go to the nearby bar. I thought to go after the bar (past midnight) but that's technically the next day; missed my window of opportunity! So I want to join a yoga studio. There are a good # around; have to compare class times and price. I just need one with beginner's classes. It would be awesome if one had a steam and shower room, but I doubt it.
11/22/09
Saturday in November
Yesterday was my last opportunity to do zumba with the cute (as in little), dough-boyish instructor with a dazzling smile. My friend's mom was there; she's funny to watch.
I counteracted that exercise by getting a milkshake.. it was chocolate, expresso, and orange liqueur. I didn't realize she put in two shots. I didn't finish half of it and felt jittery, but maybe that was also due to me rushing around and making a dish for the potluck. I used a coupon at Dillard's but it wasn't much savings. I don't like paying over $20 for a shirt. But it was worth it in that I got a coupon to get a foundation supply at Estee Lauder, and the girl, hearing from me I work every other weekend and was going out tonight , asked if I wanted her to do full make-up! That was great, didn't have to do it myself. She said I have really long lashes, which I don't think about b/c I don't like to wear mascara.
Then I went to the groc store for pie crust, yogurt, cheese, peppers, and onions for the quiche. I put in the oven when I should have been leaving, if I wanted to be on time. I was surprised when I arrived that it was 2 couples. Rae, who went to R-M, was there pregnant and with her 2 yr old daughter, who is my friend's goddaughter. They had already eaten, and I was surprised at the slim pickings. One couple brought Ruffles and French onion dip-- that's not potluck food! Potluck is supposed to be something you make. K, my friend, made an interesting chili- cheese, apple, and ground chicken. I got 2 servings since there wasn't much other food. Another friend brought deviled eggs, and when K's upstair neighbors came down, just when we started Scene it, they came with choc chip cookies fresh from the oven. This neighbor was funny (or creepy, depending how you look at it) when I knocked on his door 3 months ago; I didn't know K lived downstairs. I said when he answered the door, "I'm looking for my friend." He replied, "Well, we can be your friends!" ha.
So that couple won Seinfeld Scene it. When asked our knowledge level of Seinfeld, I said "Advanced," but my team lost! Summers in college I would watch it because we didn't have cable. I won a 5 point "All Play" but the tie breaker was who could say a funnier joke, and I had nothing! He told a lame "knock knock" joke; better than my no answer.
I would have asked to stay with K cuz I don't like driving, esp at night, and figured her friend and toddler would stay; they didn't. But K was getting tired, and I wanted to dance in Richmond. Which I did.. I had invited a friend, W, earlier and thought I'd be in Richmond by 10, but I ending up leaving Cville after 10 because K and I had a deep talk, which was good, but I was kinda worrying that W was waiting for me, I should go. My coworker also invited me to a bar. I went to W's friend's house in the West End, and from there we and her friend went to Cha Cha's, where I had been in the summer.
Agh, long story short, I stood up on a bench (under a spotlight) and danced with my friend and 2 others for what seemed a long time. It was funny! My 1 gin and tonic helped that happen; my friend and her friend didn't drink. I also saw my next door neighbor, senior in college, there.
After that, W, who had been hungry for a while, thought about IHOP, where I haven't been in a while, but decided it's too filling a meal before bed. So we did Taco Bell drive thru and I got a crunchy potato taco.
I counteracted that exercise by getting a milkshake.. it was chocolate, expresso, and orange liqueur. I didn't realize she put in two shots. I didn't finish half of it and felt jittery, but maybe that was also due to me rushing around and making a dish for the potluck. I used a coupon at Dillard's but it wasn't much savings. I don't like paying over $20 for a shirt. But it was worth it in that I got a coupon to get a foundation supply at Estee Lauder, and the girl, hearing from me I work every other weekend and was going out tonight , asked if I wanted her to do full make-up! That was great, didn't have to do it myself. She said I have really long lashes, which I don't think about b/c I don't like to wear mascara.
Then I went to the groc store for pie crust, yogurt, cheese, peppers, and onions for the quiche. I put in the oven when I should have been leaving, if I wanted to be on time. I was surprised when I arrived that it was 2 couples. Rae, who went to R-M, was there pregnant and with her 2 yr old daughter, who is my friend's goddaughter. They had already eaten, and I was surprised at the slim pickings. One couple brought Ruffles and French onion dip-- that's not potluck food! Potluck is supposed to be something you make. K, my friend, made an interesting chili- cheese, apple, and ground chicken. I got 2 servings since there wasn't much other food. Another friend brought deviled eggs, and when K's upstair neighbors came down, just when we started Scene it, they came with choc chip cookies fresh from the oven. This neighbor was funny (or creepy, depending how you look at it) when I knocked on his door 3 months ago; I didn't know K lived downstairs. I said when he answered the door, "I'm looking for my friend." He replied, "Well, we can be your friends!" ha.
So that couple won Seinfeld Scene it. When asked our knowledge level of Seinfeld, I said "Advanced," but my team lost! Summers in college I would watch it because we didn't have cable. I won a 5 point "All Play" but the tie breaker was who could say a funnier joke, and I had nothing! He told a lame "knock knock" joke; better than my no answer.
I would have asked to stay with K cuz I don't like driving, esp at night, and figured her friend and toddler would stay; they didn't. But K was getting tired, and I wanted to dance in Richmond. Which I did.. I had invited a friend, W, earlier and thought I'd be in Richmond by 10, but I ending up leaving Cville after 10 because K and I had a deep talk, which was good, but I was kinda worrying that W was waiting for me, I should go. My coworker also invited me to a bar. I went to W's friend's house in the West End, and from there we and her friend went to Cha Cha's, where I had been in the summer.
Agh, long story short, I stood up on a bench (under a spotlight) and danced with my friend and 2 others for what seemed a long time. It was funny! My 1 gin and tonic helped that happen; my friend and her friend didn't drink. I also saw my next door neighbor, senior in college, there.
After that, W, who had been hungry for a while, thought about IHOP, where I haven't been in a while, but decided it's too filling a meal before bed. So we did Taco Bell drive thru and I got a crunchy potato taco.
11/21/09
Hope
I'm trying not to think how I've let a lot of time pass without improving my situation.. look forward, rather, and have hope that things will work out (if I work toward my goal).
4 day weekend!
Going to Cville for a potluck Sat, will see Christmas Carol Sunday, drive to Lburg Monday and come back Tuesday.
4 day weekend!
Going to Cville for a potluck Sat, will see Christmas Carol Sunday, drive to Lburg Monday and come back Tuesday.
11/7/09
Serendipity
Yesterday my Mom and I planned to go to Costco and didn't go until after 2pm because I had some things to do first. It was so cool to see upon arriving, at the photo center, Mrs. Yaffe, whose 4th grade class I taught French to senior year of high school! I told her where I work now, that it uses French a little but I want a new job, that I taught English in China after graduation, and that my co-teacher did become a primary school teacher in Northern VA. An accomplishment, now that I think about it, is that I didn't start to tear up. I sometimes do this when I see people I haven't seen for a while and feel sad when they ask how I've been.
I didn't tell her I called the school back in April, I guess, to ask if she was still there (I figured she retired. That was when I was housesitting at my cousin's, who lives near the school.) She said I could consider subbing (no, thank you!) and teaching, in general, because it's a fairly secure job. (I was about to tell her the native French teacher I know around here said her job is in jeopardy and thinks of learning Spanish in case there isn't need for French).
Going out last night was definitely what I needed. I don't really care for the dance spaces I've been to in Richmond, but they'll have to do for now. I didn't feel it appropriate to grind with anyone since I was with a circle of friends. Guess I feel more comfortable grinding when it's darker and a huge space! Anonymity. We went to Shauna's, and Yennhi dragged her out even though she said she's sick. Hope I don't get more sick from her, because we danced (holding hands), and I didn't wash my hands before eating fries and pizza at Aladdin. I didn't know about that place, which is open til 3 and has houkka. Who would want prune flavor? haha.
I saw a guy from high school who may have been in my homeroom since his last name starts "Hu." I talked to him and then his gf came back, and I realized it may look like I was hitting on him! I told her we went to high school together, but my voice isn't that strong right now and it was so loud. I also recognized a guy who msged me on the meetup site, but I didn't say hi. Funny to recognize people you haven't met, just from a photo!
A really funny thing: Thursday I put up (in multiple tries) the beginning of my photos from Cali. Stella, my Chinese acquaintance who I thought I'd see in San Francisco but then she had to leave a day earlier, liked my photos of Santa Cruz, and thinking they were San Fran, asked if she could put them in her photo album! So 2 or 3 of my photos, one with sea lions(!), has her tagged. I don't care if she does that, but my friend did say "A random Chinese girl tagged herself." I don't think Stella understands tagging means you are in the photo.
I didn't tell her I called the school back in April, I guess, to ask if she was still there (I figured she retired. That was when I was housesitting at my cousin's, who lives near the school.) She said I could consider subbing (no, thank you!) and teaching, in general, because it's a fairly secure job. (I was about to tell her the native French teacher I know around here said her job is in jeopardy and thinks of learning Spanish in case there isn't need for French).
Going out last night was definitely what I needed. I don't really care for the dance spaces I've been to in Richmond, but they'll have to do for now. I didn't feel it appropriate to grind with anyone since I was with a circle of friends. Guess I feel more comfortable grinding when it's darker and a huge space! Anonymity. We went to Shauna's, and Yennhi dragged her out even though she said she's sick. Hope I don't get more sick from her, because we danced (holding hands), and I didn't wash my hands before eating fries and pizza at Aladdin. I didn't know about that place, which is open til 3 and has houkka. Who would want prune flavor? haha.
I saw a guy from high school who may have been in my homeroom since his last name starts "Hu." I talked to him and then his gf came back, and I realized it may look like I was hitting on him! I told her we went to high school together, but my voice isn't that strong right now and it was so loud. I also recognized a guy who msged me on the meetup site, but I didn't say hi. Funny to recognize people you haven't met, just from a photo!
A really funny thing: Thursday I put up (in multiple tries) the beginning of my photos from Cali. Stella, my Chinese acquaintance who I thought I'd see in San Francisco but then she had to leave a day earlier, liked my photos of Santa Cruz, and thinking they were San Fran, asked if she could put them in her photo album! So 2 or 3 of my photos, one with sea lions(!), has her tagged. I don't care if she does that, but my friend did say "A random Chinese girl tagged herself." I don't think Stella understands tagging means you are in the photo.
10/26/09
Rejection
The only job I applied to in the last year (I know, terrible) gave me a rejection, which blows, but can't say I didn't expect it. It involved natural resources, in which I don't have a background.
I seriously think this 4-12 shift is the least productive of all. People think "You have plenty of time to make contacts before work" but the truth of the matter is, I can't sleep until 4am, therefore waking up after 11am. Today I watched a movie, need to cook something, get some exercise, drop off books at library, and that's it, my day is done.
I'm really glad I'm going to the west coast in 3 days. I love flying on planes. Excited to see the Pacific!
I seriously think this 4-12 shift is the least productive of all. People think "You have plenty of time to make contacts before work" but the truth of the matter is, I can't sleep until 4am, therefore waking up after 11am. Today I watched a movie, need to cook something, get some exercise, drop off books at library, and that's it, my day is done.
I'm really glad I'm going to the west coast in 3 days. I love flying on planes. Excited to see the Pacific!
10/25/09
Life's lessons
Maybe that's not the proper title, but it refers to how I was so excited to have a dinner date after a year on my schedule, and in the end, the guy and I didn't click. Perhaps 30 is too old, ha. He was an only child for a long time like me, and is introverted. And I wasn't that attracted to him. It was the nicest date I have been on, though: nice dinner, guy with manners, live jazz.
Today I went to the Celtic festival with my friend and her husband. $19 admission! but it was interesting. I bought a scone with whipped cream and strawberries.
Today I went to the Celtic festival with my friend and her husband. $19 admission! but it was interesting. I bought a scone with whipped cream and strawberries.
10/19/09
I want the ability to date!
Lately I can't go to bed before 4am.. I hate it.
Last night I went out with coworkers and was informally set up with my coworker's boyfriend's friend. I did like him. Maybe the alcohol influenced the feeling, but no, think I'd like him regardless. And apparently he liked me, too, and I just want to "waaaaaaaaaah!" like a big baby because I can't date with a schedule like this! My coworker does, but she lives downtown, closer to where young people live. This week I've been thinking I want to live on my own finally. Today I got my stuff from college down from the attic and starting going thru it. I'm going to sell textbooks when I get back from Cali.
Last night I went out with coworkers and was informally set up with my coworker's boyfriend's friend. I did like him. Maybe the alcohol influenced the feeling, but no, think I'd like him regardless. And apparently he liked me, too, and I just want to "waaaaaaaaaah!" like a big baby because I can't date with a schedule like this! My coworker does, but she lives downtown, closer to where young people live. This week I've been thinking I want to live on my own finally. Today I got my stuff from college down from the attic and starting going thru it. I'm going to sell textbooks when I get back from Cali.
10/16/09
Weeknight outings don't go well for me. There was a meet up.com event called "champagne loungin" that promised free champagne and reggae, but when we got there, it was two older single guys (because it was joint meetup with Singles group), and we were told the organizer wasn't coming. I hate when I go to an event and older guys are there.. that is not how I want to spend my precious time off. I talked to a guy my age whose name I don't remember. He's attractive and nice, but not my type (voice a little too Southern). Reminds me of a guy in my Spanish class this summer, "Roberto," who has a gf named Blair.
One guy, after I said I work evening shift, said "Let me guess, you're a nurse." Forgetting the evening shift connection, I thought that was funny. (I could never be a nurse!)
I got one drink, taking my friend's suggestion of a Blue Hawaiian.
One guy, after I said I work evening shift, said "Let me guess, you're a nurse." Forgetting the evening shift connection, I thought that was funny. (I could never be a nurse!)
I got one drink, taking my friend's suggestion of a Blue Hawaiian.
10/15/09
My company proved my dad wrong
So they hired my long-time acquaintance, into my dept and a better shift. That kind of stings. I forwarded her resume to HR when she asked me to.. what was I to do, thwart her job search? She got discouraged because they hadn't contacted her. I told her they were exceptionally busy, and then I heard they hired temp workers, who I found out yday are only here for 2 weeks, she thought she would start applying for "shit jobs." But they saw her yday and offered today. This sounds bad, but I've the right to be bitter after a year deprived of a social life: my consolation is that she is making less than me and still is there til 8pm. I aim to get a 9-5 job where I can go on dinner dates if I want to. Speaking of men, what is with unattractive older guys msging me on meetup.com? I rsvped "Yes" to the champagne (free! supposedly) reggae event my night off. I was going to go to Cville to spend time with my laid-off friend, but she wants to apply to jobs, which I need to do, too, so it works out! Only two weeks til my trip.. I have to plan more. Can't believe it's been 2 weeks since I applied to that job. I will be happy if I apply to one more and follow up on current one before I go.
The title refers to my dad's theory they wouldn't hire C (acquaintance) b/c she stated 2x in interview that she did not want to work 4-midnight shift (mine). He thought this showed the employer she was picky.
Don't know when she starts training (which will be a 3 week thing). I'm not sure I want to work with her around.. maybe they'll put her on the other partition.
So yeah, that's rather a bummer, but should motivate me to get out of there faster. I thought that about the last hire but she turns out to be nice and friendly. Still..
The title refers to my dad's theory they wouldn't hire C (acquaintance) b/c she stated 2x in interview that she did not want to work 4-midnight shift (mine). He thought this showed the employer she was picky.
Don't know when she starts training (which will be a 3 week thing). I'm not sure I want to work with her around.. maybe they'll put her on the other partition.
So yeah, that's rather a bummer, but should motivate me to get out of there faster. I thought that about the last hire but she turns out to be nice and friendly. Still..
10/13/09
My mom is actually going to work again
The last time my mom worked full-time was when I was 3 or 4. So 20 years later, she's finally doing it! I'm happy for her. It's good timing, too, because I thought 2 days before she told me that I wish I had the house to myself more often. I would love to have a vege day and watch movies, but what I really need is to change my job so that I can have a social life.
Saturday I went out with a long-time acquaintance (since elementary school). She is back in town living at home because she broke up with her professor boyfriend who decided to take a job in Montana, where she wasn't willing to go. We went to a popular restaurant/bar where they had a Bollywood theme night. I was sitting with my back to the projection screen. It wasn't racy Indian music videos (which I rather enjoy) that they were showing, but an old, cheesy subtitled movie. (And the dj was playing Indian songs). I had two "vodka crans" and then a girly mixed drink with pomegranate liquor. That was my limit. My coworker who is a few years older and had taken a sick day was there and tapped me on the shoulder. There was also a guy from my company who I recognized and said hi to but couldn't hear which dept he works in. My friend and I danced a bit but she motioned to leave when one guy got too close to her. We were fully tipsy, and she starting speaking in French. (Funny how intoxication makes us less inhibited speaking foreign languages).
We ended up at "Little Mexico," which is a little joint open til 3am for college students and those who quit the bar and have the munchies like we did. We split a barbocoa burrito, which she really enjoyed and wanted more of.
I was still a little hung-over when I woke up after noon the next morning. So I had a lot of fun with her, especially after having worked 3 consecutive Saturday nights, but it's bittersweet; going out like that makes me want to do it more often, and I can't. I am more motivated to make change now.
Saturday I went out with a long-time acquaintance (since elementary school). She is back in town living at home because she broke up with her professor boyfriend who decided to take a job in Montana, where she wasn't willing to go. We went to a popular restaurant/bar where they had a Bollywood theme night. I was sitting with my back to the projection screen. It wasn't racy Indian music videos (which I rather enjoy) that they were showing, but an old, cheesy subtitled movie. (And the dj was playing Indian songs). I had two "vodka crans" and then a girly mixed drink with pomegranate liquor. That was my limit. My coworker who is a few years older and had taken a sick day was there and tapped me on the shoulder. There was also a guy from my company who I recognized and said hi to but couldn't hear which dept he works in. My friend and I danced a bit but she motioned to leave when one guy got too close to her. We were fully tipsy, and she starting speaking in French. (Funny how intoxication makes us less inhibited speaking foreign languages).
We ended up at "Little Mexico," which is a little joint open til 3am for college students and those who quit the bar and have the munchies like we did. We split a barbocoa burrito, which she really enjoyed and wanted more of.
I was still a little hung-over when I woke up after noon the next morning. So I had a lot of fun with her, especially after having worked 3 consecutive Saturday nights, but it's bittersweet; going out like that makes me want to do it more often, and I can't. I am more motivated to make change now.
10/9/09
Après le déluge
I had an emotional crisis but am over it. I see things much rosier when it's over.. now if I could keep that feeling throughout.
My sis got contacts finally yesterday. I'm happy for her. Think it will help her self-image. SHe doesn't have a great one because she is overweight.
Today I bought Finnish night cream. Ellen thinks under 30's buying such stuff is a waste of money, but I look at it as prevention. I have a lot more fine lines than this time last year. I didn't wear moisturizer until last year because I don't have oily or dry skin; just used unscented body lotion.
Ha, an old acquaintance back in town wrote she "hooked up with the keyboardist." Not something you hear every day.
My sis got contacts finally yesterday. I'm happy for her. Think it will help her self-image. SHe doesn't have a great one because she is overweight.
Today I bought Finnish night cream. Ellen thinks under 30's buying such stuff is a waste of money, but I look at it as prevention. I have a lot more fine lines than this time last year. I didn't wear moisturizer until last year because I don't have oily or dry skin; just used unscented body lotion.
Ha, an old acquaintance back in town wrote she "hooked up with the keyboardist." Not something you hear every day.
10/4/09
Sunny Sunday
Last night at work was terrible. Friday night was hell, too. And unfortunately, I've run out of time for now to job search because I need to plan my Cali trip, make necessary reservations, and buy a camera.
I did apply to a job (finally!) this week. Not quite qualified because it involved natural resources, but I'll follow up.
Yesterday I met up with a French acquaintance who said I should go blonde and apply to a French-speaking embassy.. they love blondes! Don't know about changing my looks for a job, but I will look into embassies.
I think it's ridiculous one can't simply walk in and get a simple, affordable hair wash and dry around here. In France they do that, but it's a little expensive. In China they do it, with a fabulous shoulder and scalp massage, and it's dirt cheap! I miss those times. (In terms of hair cut, though, they don't know how to cut Westerners' hair).
I received e-greetings from a Chinese friend because it is mid-Autumn festival. The day before I had bought moon cakes (filled with lotus paste) at the Asian store. Also bought a yummy Japanese cheese pastry. The Japanese know how to make good desserts.
I did apply to a job (finally!) this week. Not quite qualified because it involved natural resources, but I'll follow up.
Yesterday I met up with a French acquaintance who said I should go blonde and apply to a French-speaking embassy.. they love blondes! Don't know about changing my looks for a job, but I will look into embassies.
I think it's ridiculous one can't simply walk in and get a simple, affordable hair wash and dry around here. In France they do that, but it's a little expensive. In China they do it, with a fabulous shoulder and scalp massage, and it's dirt cheap! I miss those times. (In terms of hair cut, though, they don't know how to cut Westerners' hair).
I received e-greetings from a Chinese friend because it is mid-Autumn festival. The day before I had bought moon cakes (filled with lotus paste) at the Asian store. Also bought a yummy Japanese cheese pastry. The Japanese know how to make good desserts.
9/30/09
Can't do this anymore
I have one weeknight off a week, and I try to plan ahead. I don't have fun, though. Because I don't have much contact with people or much going on in my life, I have little to say. And I don't really enjoy the company of the people I'm with. So it's gotta change.. I need a group of friends who understand me to hang out with on somewhat regular basis.
Concerning Twitter post: Realized my tweets are protected. Guess if one became a member, and I allowed them to follow me, they could be viewed.
Concerning Twitter post: Realized my tweets are protected. Guess if one became a member, and I allowed them to follow me, they could be viewed.
9/29/09
http://twitter.com/holmesle
I started a Twitter account a few weeks ago even though I'm pretty much against the concept. I did it because it's a concise (maybe too concise!) way to mark progress in my job search (of which I've had little).
But I'm finally going to apply for a job! I'm not totally qualified, but then, according to my current job's "requirements," wasn't qualified for it either.
I started a Twitter account a few weeks ago even though I'm pretty much against the concept. I did it because it's a concise (maybe too concise!) way to mark progress in my job search (of which I've had little).
But I'm finally going to apply for a job! I'm not totally qualified, but then, according to my current job's "requirements," wasn't qualified for it either.
9/28/09
Last Sunday of September, really?
Man, I just looked at photos on Fbook of a Vietnamese(?)-American guy from HS: one with his shirt off, he is ripped and hot! Anyway..
It is not cool to be hit on by an undergrad and told I look 18 or 19. Waaaaaaah! I used the 10 minute Hydramassage machine at the gym and came out sleepy b/c I had the eye mask on. A young guy comes toward me and says I look familiar (this is actually the 2nd time this week I've gotten that line). Asks if I go to VCU, and I said no. I then asked "How old are you?" He was probably lying when he said 22. I said, "Well, I'm 24, I look younger," at which point he said I look 18 or 19. (Man, I'm getting younger! That's funny b/c my little sis and I are 7 years apart; she's 17, but because she's a bit matronly right now, she's sometimes thought to be older). Then he pulls a "I'm new in town, moved from Hawaii, looking for someone to show me around." I said I work evenings and am looking for a job, don't have much time. That was that. But then upstairs I was using machines, and he asked if I had changed my mind. Persistent bastard! The dangers of working out alone at night in the "meat market" gym. That's actually the first time. I guess I'd rather it be a young thing than a pathetic older guy but it worried me a little, how I look younger, and therefore, younger guys thinking I'm their age. Oh, well. It's all about situations, and I don't think I'll be in too many with under 21s.
It is not cool to be hit on by an undergrad and told I look 18 or 19. Waaaaaaah! I used the 10 minute Hydramassage machine at the gym and came out sleepy b/c I had the eye mask on. A young guy comes toward me and says I look familiar (this is actually the 2nd time this week I've gotten that line). Asks if I go to VCU, and I said no. I then asked "How old are you?" He was probably lying when he said 22. I said, "Well, I'm 24, I look younger," at which point he said I look 18 or 19. (Man, I'm getting younger! That's funny b/c my little sis and I are 7 years apart; she's 17, but because she's a bit matronly right now, she's sometimes thought to be older). Then he pulls a "I'm new in town, moved from Hawaii, looking for someone to show me around." I said I work evenings and am looking for a job, don't have much time. That was that. But then upstairs I was using machines, and he asked if I had changed my mind. Persistent bastard! The dangers of working out alone at night in the "meat market" gym. That's actually the first time. I guess I'd rather it be a young thing than a pathetic older guy but it worried me a little, how I look younger, and therefore, younger guys thinking I'm their age. Oh, well. It's all about situations, and I don't think I'll be in too many with under 21s.
9/25/09
Angry
So I tried to help an old acquaintance find a job at my company, even though I wouldn't recommend it to anyone. She will have an interview with them Monday for my dept. I had told her I assumed Concierge dept wasn't hiring b/c they just hired a bunch of people. So I'm afraid they will offer her a position alongside me, but day shift, which is what I want. I should have expressed interest in day shift long ago, but thought I wanted a different company altogether (but unfortunately, have yet to get my act together).
I want her to get a job, and she'd be fine with my dept, but not a better shift than me! She applied to 25 jobs in DC but didn't hear back.
Man, that surprised and stressed me. Feel I can accomplish little this shift b/c after waking up, there are only so many hours for exercise, eating, and job searching. I'm so fed up but strive for better times.
I want her to get a job, and she'd be fine with my dept, but not a better shift than me! She applied to 25 jobs in DC but didn't hear back.
Man, that surprised and stressed me. Feel I can accomplish little this shift b/c after waking up, there are only so many hours for exercise, eating, and job searching. I'm so fed up but strive for better times.
9/20/09
Saturday on the job, off to DC!
Had some low points this week, but aside from some anxiety, feel fine overall.
I survived 4 days of 2 extra hours. Essentially, I worked the equiv of 5 days in 4, but it wasn't so bad.
Today's lesson at work: Don't wait until the night of to make a reservation for a (small) bachelor party at a popular club in Vegas. More precisely, don't be picky about which one, or wait 2 hrs to reply to the VM the concierge (me) left you.
Oh, another one: Don't proposition a girl who sounds like she's still in school (me) to go on a cruise to the Bahamas. One, you come off as a lonely pervert on a Saturday night, and dumbass, the calls are recorded.
ha
I survived 4 days of 2 extra hours. Essentially, I worked the equiv of 5 days in 4, but it wasn't so bad.
Today's lesson at work: Don't wait until the night of to make a reservation for a (small) bachelor party at a popular club in Vegas. More precisely, don't be picky about which one, or wait 2 hrs to reply to the VM the concierge (me) left you.
Oh, another one: Don't proposition a girl who sounds like she's still in school (me) to go on a cruise to the Bahamas. One, you come off as a lonely pervert on a Saturday night, and dumbass, the calls are recorded.
ha
9/16/09
Workplace venting
I am so frustrated that I submitted a shift swap request last Friday, and told my coworker I was waiting for her to accept it (we had already decided via email it was fine). I hate reminding people like they're kids, hounding them "Did you do it yet?" I was annoyed Monday when she saw me and remembered it, but I called the office just now, and she still hasn't done it! 5 days later! This is someone who doesn't check her email often so I figured verbally is the way to go, but when it comes down to it, that's the safer method of communication, because at least it's there (if she goes thru her email) when I'm not!
I like to solidify my plans ahead of time. You would think even though this swap is my request, she would want to submit it to be accepted because I am giving her a Saturday night off in exchange for my Sunday! I think she's somewhat ADD, definitely into Twitter.
I haven't thought of who else I can meet in DC area to maximize my stay, and plain frustrating to know I'm waiting on this stupid thing. I wrote a sticky-note that I can put on her desk when I arrive, but maybe she'll defect a bitchy tone. It is the truth though: "Please submit the swap request; I submitted it 5 days ago." Basically, "I'm waiting on you, you inconsiderate, forgetful woman!" (I like this person, but in cases like this, it definitely aggravates me)
I like to solidify my plans ahead of time. You would think even though this swap is my request, she would want to submit it to be accepted because I am giving her a Saturday night off in exchange for my Sunday! I think she's somewhat ADD, definitely into Twitter.
I haven't thought of who else I can meet in DC area to maximize my stay, and plain frustrating to know I'm waiting on this stupid thing. I wrote a sticky-note that I can put on her desk when I arrive, but maybe she'll defect a bitchy tone. It is the truth though: "Please submit the swap request; I submitted it 5 days ago." Basically, "I'm waiting on you, you inconsiderate, forgetful woman!" (I like this person, but in cases like this, it definitely aggravates me)
9/13/09
Musing after 11 mos at my job
Things I have learned from a terrible, crisis-forming first year of work in
Ex. I misunderstood that I had to enroll in both Nov and for the full year for Flex account. $300 is not enough for one year, and I waited until 9 months to submit, when I learned I wasn’t even enrolled for that year
- Don’t stress. One incident, one day, is just a grain of sand in a bucket compared to the days of work I have ahead of me in my lifetime.
At the same time, appreciate the good aspects.. we don’t have much camaraderie, not being able to “visit” coworkers since we are attached to a headset, but I have enjoyed joking with my coworkers. On the negative side, I value this more so because I have few friends here right now and little social life due to working evening shift
-Don’t take a defeated approach. One has to live in the present, but at the same time, think of the future and have perspective.
- Be more confident, so that coworkers and managers will respect you. I think of what others think of me, but not when it’s important! It’s not good to think about it too much, but one does need to consider how their actions and words are perceived by others in the workplace.
9/12/09
8 years since 9/11
Can't believe it's been 8 years.
I'm waiting for Sasha to get online. She emails me without much notice, as in, the next time she'll be online is when we're supposed to talk. I see her as signed in on Skype, but she didn't answer when I called. I wasn't unable to add Skype credit before work, so called home on my break, just in case it needed time to take effect, to prepare calling her. But calling Skype to Skype is free, anyway. The second 15 min of my break (they should be an hour!) I went to the ice cream place.. going on a weekday night is better, less people. I got a cinnamon milkshake.. wasn't that great, and took a while to make.
While speaking to a French Canadian (but in English), my dad emailed my work account, and I thought "He shouldn't do that!" But I email his work email when I want an answer; that and he has so many personal "junk mail" accounts.
I'm writing stupid stuff.
I'm waiting for Sasha to get online. She emails me without much notice, as in, the next time she'll be online is when we're supposed to talk. I see her as signed in on Skype, but she didn't answer when I called. I wasn't unable to add Skype credit before work, so called home on my break, just in case it needed time to take effect, to prepare calling her. But calling Skype to Skype is free, anyway. The second 15 min of my break (they should be an hour!) I went to the ice cream place.. going on a weekday night is better, less people. I got a cinnamon milkshake.. wasn't that great, and took a while to make.
While speaking to a French Canadian (but in English), my dad emailed my work account, and I thought "He shouldn't do that!" But I email his work email when I want an answer; that and he has so many personal "junk mail" accounts.
I'm writing stupid stuff.
9/10/09
Day off
Now I have not only a faster laptop, but my desktop from college to use. I wish I didn't rely on my dad so much, but he is good with computers; the laptop I'm on now needed tons of updates.
I'm not going to want to wake up for yoga at 11:00am.
I'm not going to want to wake up for yoga at 11:00am.
9/4/09
Kings Dominion
Today my sister and I went to the local amusement park. Unfortunately, I sometimes find amusement parks a little depressing, which is the opposite of its name and what most people think! Maybe it's because it's common to see a good amount of overweight people, and man, the tattoos! I'm reminded at amusement parks that I've had a different upbringing than a lot of the people there. I don't mean to sound snobby, not at all, but it's almost a cultural (American!) experience, eye-opener.
We were fortunate that their 2nd to last Friday, Labor Day weekend, wasn't busy. Only one ride had a somewhat long wait. In general, we could repeat the ride without waiting in line. My sister did this while I waited for her. I was somewhat disappointed that I'm not really a fan of roller coasters anymore.. they hurt my head!
My internet connection keeps going in and out-- annoying!
We were fortunate that their 2nd to last Friday, Labor Day weekend, wasn't busy. Only one ride had a somewhat long wait. In general, we could repeat the ride without waiting in line. My sister did this while I waited for her. I was somewhat disappointed that I'm not really a fan of roller coasters anymore.. they hurt my head!
My internet connection keeps going in and out-- annoying!
8/27/09
Final day in NYC
Ok. So V and I had gotten back to the hostel after 2:00am early Monday morning. We slept till 9:00 or so. Annoying we had to go down 2 flights of stairs to use the mirror at the stairwell b/c they don't have them in the bathrooms.
Ate at the restaurant next door again for breakfast; we both got pancakes. The fruit cup was disappointing... not fresh, probably was in the fridge since yesterday.
Then we were off to MoMA. It was a quick (1.5 hr) visit, but we saw famous paintings, like Van Gogh's "Starry Night," and ones by Gaugin, Picasso, Chagall, and Kandinsky. I'll have to go again with an audio guide.
I went with V to the bus station, and we said our goodbyes. She may be back in the States next year when her friend will be studying in Philadelphia. From there, I took the subway in the wrong direction, but decided I'd explore the W side. I just walked.. without direction. Asked a policeman Lau the best way to get back to the E. Managed to take a bus in the wrong direction, farther west instead of across Central Park. At that point, needed a bathroom. The French resto "Alouette" I saw was closed, so I went to Hunan something or other. Was a mistake to order taro bubble tea: it was just gross. The scallops I ordered came pan-fried and seasoned, pretty good, with brown rice and vegetables. I hate eating at restaurants alone! Then I caught the bus in the right direction, thru Central Park, and went back to the hostel. Took the subway to Chinatown, and figured I had time to get some Chinese snacks and dragonfruit. When I asked a Chinese woman on the street where to buy fruit, she thought I said "food." Then I said "shuiguo." The dragonfruit were $3.00 a piece (could I have negotiated?), and to my dismay when I peeled one a few days later, not sweet. So I thought I was set, waiting for my bus. Guess I was there 4:30. That was a mistake right there, because I remembered afterward how they have two locations, and try to fill up the bus, which they did, without me. I don't see how they can't not keep track of online and on-site purchase of tickets. I kept hearing buses for Philly. Then they said there wasn't room for D.C. -Richmond bus. I asked when the next D.C. (mistake) bus was, and was told in an hour. So I listened to my iPod and watched people go in and out of the gross bathroom. At 6:00 when the next D.C. bus came, I asked about Richmond, and was told frantically, "No, not til 11:00pm." That was a blow right there. I had dropped V off at 12:30. I had expected to be home after 11, and instead wouldn't be leaving til then. I was upset, and called my mom, starting to cry. Then I decided to make light of the situation: I was in NYC, afterall, albeit with a backpack. So I decided to go to Top of the Rock, which V and her friends had done last time. They didn't have a coat check, so had to carry backpack thru there. Unfortunately, my sis' old dig cam with me isn't great, so couldn't take good photos of the city. Then the battery started to die on me. I heard a father and daughter, about 18, speaking French, and spoke with them briefly. I'm rusty, and didn't "stay" with them b/c was intimidated I wouldn't know what else to say. I think they were happy to speak to a francophone American, nonetheless.
Then I had the goal of going to Serendipity, the ice cream parlour after which a movie was named. Don't remember how now, but in my wanderings, came to an across the water "subway" cable car ride, which was good fortune. While waiting, I got hungry. I had read the sign in big letters "NO EATING, DRINKING, SMOKING on this platform" a minute before, yet took out my Chinese snacks and starting munching. Better yet, I was standing against the sign. Great short-term memory I have. Hey, when the need for food arises.. I wondered why a woman kind-of glared at me. The cable car went to Roosevelt Island, where they had an outdoor movie screening of "Hairspray," which I saw in D.C. 2 years ago and didn't care for. French tourists also on that cable ride. I didn't feel like talking anymore.
I made it to Serendipity, but there was a wait line, and since it's a small place, would feel funny eating alone. Viviane joked that I could meet the man of my dreams at the parlor and more chance of that than grocery shopping in Chinatown.
From there I walked a LOT with my backpack, making my way south. I regretted not having bought the unlimited subway pass for $.25 more because I had to refill it multiple times that evening due to my unanticipated extended stay. I found a huge Whole Foods not too far from Chinatown, where I knew I could use the bathroom, brush my teeth, and take out my contacts before the bus ride. Instead of ice cream I could have had, I got Wallaby pear yogurt and cinnamon-flavored water.
The bus ride back was better than the way there.. the guy next to me got off somewhere before Baltimore, and I slept most of the time. We got to Richmond around 5:00am. My dad wasn't there yet. An African guy waiting said his phone didn't have service and asked to use mine. He left VMs with two people who were probably sleeping. I felt bad leaving when picked up, like maybe we should have offered a ride. I got home and slept til 10. The end.
Ate at the restaurant next door again for breakfast; we both got pancakes. The fruit cup was disappointing... not fresh, probably was in the fridge since yesterday.
Then we were off to MoMA. It was a quick (1.5 hr) visit, but we saw famous paintings, like Van Gogh's "Starry Night," and ones by Gaugin, Picasso, Chagall, and Kandinsky. I'll have to go again with an audio guide.
I went with V to the bus station, and we said our goodbyes. She may be back in the States next year when her friend will be studying in Philadelphia. From there, I took the subway in the wrong direction, but decided I'd explore the W side. I just walked.. without direction. Asked a policeman Lau the best way to get back to the E. Managed to take a bus in the wrong direction, farther west instead of across Central Park. At that point, needed a bathroom. The French resto "Alouette" I saw was closed, so I went to Hunan something or other. Was a mistake to order taro bubble tea: it was just gross. The scallops I ordered came pan-fried and seasoned, pretty good, with brown rice and vegetables. I hate eating at restaurants alone! Then I caught the bus in the right direction, thru Central Park, and went back to the hostel. Took the subway to Chinatown, and figured I had time to get some Chinese snacks and dragonfruit. When I asked a Chinese woman on the street where to buy fruit, she thought I said "food." Then I said "shuiguo." The dragonfruit were $3.00 a piece (could I have negotiated?), and to my dismay when I peeled one a few days later, not sweet. So I thought I was set, waiting for my bus. Guess I was there 4:30. That was a mistake right there, because I remembered afterward how they have two locations, and try to fill up the bus, which they did, without me. I don't see how they can't not keep track of online and on-site purchase of tickets. I kept hearing buses for Philly. Then they said there wasn't room for D.C. -Richmond bus. I asked when the next D.C. (mistake) bus was, and was told in an hour. So I listened to my iPod and watched people go in and out of the gross bathroom. At 6:00 when the next D.C. bus came, I asked about Richmond, and was told frantically, "No, not til 11:00pm." That was a blow right there. I had dropped V off at 12:30. I had expected to be home after 11, and instead wouldn't be leaving til then. I was upset, and called my mom, starting to cry. Then I decided to make light of the situation: I was in NYC, afterall, albeit with a backpack. So I decided to go to Top of the Rock, which V and her friends had done last time. They didn't have a coat check, so had to carry backpack thru there. Unfortunately, my sis' old dig cam with me isn't great, so couldn't take good photos of the city. Then the battery started to die on me. I heard a father and daughter, about 18, speaking French, and spoke with them briefly. I'm rusty, and didn't "stay" with them b/c was intimidated I wouldn't know what else to say. I think they were happy to speak to a francophone American, nonetheless.
Then I had the goal of going to Serendipity, the ice cream parlour after which a movie was named. Don't remember how now, but in my wanderings, came to an across the water "subway" cable car ride, which was good fortune. While waiting, I got hungry. I had read the sign in big letters "NO EATING, DRINKING, SMOKING on this platform" a minute before, yet took out my Chinese snacks and starting munching. Better yet, I was standing against the sign. Great short-term memory I have. Hey, when the need for food arises.. I wondered why a woman kind-of glared at me. The cable car went to Roosevelt Island, where they had an outdoor movie screening of "Hairspray," which I saw in D.C. 2 years ago and didn't care for. French tourists also on that cable ride. I didn't feel like talking anymore.
I made it to Serendipity, but there was a wait line, and since it's a small place, would feel funny eating alone. Viviane joked that I could meet the man of my dreams at the parlor and more chance of that than grocery shopping in Chinatown.
From there I walked a LOT with my backpack, making my way south. I regretted not having bought the unlimited subway pass for $.25 more because I had to refill it multiple times that evening due to my unanticipated extended stay. I found a huge Whole Foods not too far from Chinatown, where I knew I could use the bathroom, brush my teeth, and take out my contacts before the bus ride. Instead of ice cream I could have had, I got Wallaby pear yogurt and cinnamon-flavored water.
The bus ride back was better than the way there.. the guy next to me got off somewhere before Baltimore, and I slept most of the time. We got to Richmond around 5:00am. My dad wasn't there yet. An African guy waiting said his phone didn't have service and asked to use mine. He left VMs with two people who were probably sleeping. I felt bad leaving when picked up, like maybe we should have offered a ride. I got home and slept til 10. The end.
Going to a concert today
I met with a counselor yday who I liked and made me more hopeful after I left. Best of all, she's free (for 6 sessions) with the Employee Assistance program at work. She thinks I should be on by own again; that's what I want, but not practical until I find a better job in a different area. My goal is to have a day job and live around D.C. (or elsewhere with prospects) by December. Let's hope I pull it off.
At the staffing agency Tuesday, the agent answered the phone and asked the guy if he had committed a felony, at which she referred another agency! My dad doesn't think it will come to anything (lower wage jobs), but could be worthwhile to do temporary work to get more of a feel of what I like.
At the staffing agency Tuesday, the agent answered the phone and asked the guy if he had committed a felony, at which she referred another agency! My dad doesn't think it will come to anything (lower wage jobs), but could be worthwhile to do temporary work to get more of a feel of what I like.
8/25/09
Interview for which I haven't prepared
..with a staffing agency that I visited twice while taking classes this summer.
Oh, I went to check my grade yday, 3 weeks after the course ended, and it's no longer online. I should request a transcript for future reference.
Woke up early with imaginary work request again.. I really hate that. My cousin's dog didn't want to come in last night (why does he not like it inside?), so he barked a few times after 7am.
On a positive note, I got an email from a Chinese friend in Suzhou, which was a nice way to start my morning. Correspondance over time definitely makes life more meaningful.
Oh, I went to check my grade yday, 3 weeks after the course ended, and it's no longer online. I should request a transcript for future reference.
Woke up early with imaginary work request again.. I really hate that. My cousin's dog didn't want to come in last night (why does he not like it inside?), so he barked a few times after 7am.
On a positive note, I got an email from a Chinese friend in Suzhou, which was a nice way to start my morning. Correspondance over time definitely makes life more meaningful.
8/23/09
NYC Day 2
I'm house-sitting at my cousin's now, and didn't think I'd need a mini-mouse; therefore, my keyboard is on top of the laptop keyboard (which doesn't work well), which I move aside when I want to use the touch-pad mouse.
Ok, from memory, day 2..
Last Sunday we had plans to visit Mme Tussaud's wax museum, which we made it to after 11:00am. I slept rather well at the hostel. Their breakfast of toast and watery coffee (which I didn't consume) left more to be desired, so we bought yogurt at a shop in Times Square. There were SO many wax figures there, 5 levels, I believe. By the 2nd to last level, Viviane was tired of posing. I wasn't in the mood to do interesting poses, so just smiled next to each one. I will upload the photos on Fbook (along with NYC pics from 3 months ago before I started classes!). I insisted to Viviane she had to pose with certain important American figures she didn't know, like FDR, Babe Ruth, and Bruce Springsteen. After 1.5 hours or so there, we were headed to Coney Island but needed lunch before the long subway ride. We stopped in Little Italy and had a nice outdoor lunch under a red umbrella with courteous staff at Palazzo. I like sitting at cafés and people-watching, something that can be done in cities. I heard a lot of Italian tourists this trip and wondered how many come to see "Little Italy," which is basically one street of restaurants. I hag gnocchi, which was good, but of course too generous a portion; no room for gelato! When I left, I forgot my plastic bag with flip flops for the beach, and the waiter ran after me, which was nice.
Then off to Coney Island, which takes 45 minutes or so. Unlike last August there (we were there closer to noon), the beach was packed! There was a Coney Island flea market going on, whose ad I cut out of a newspaper back in May. There weren't many vendors, but V and I were glad to get smoothies on such a hot day. I could have mixed mango with watermelon, but simply got watermelon. V got strawberry (her favorite) and kiwi. We put our feet in the water, and felt we had seen enough. Less than an hour at Coney Island, but it was so hot, and we had to get back to hostel to change before going out for dinner and drinks.
We made it to Astor Place subway stop just 10 minutes after planned; sucks my phone doesn't have service in the subway. There we met Donna and inquired whether 5 people could be accomodated at Angel's Share bar; alas, no.. strict 4 pax maximum at that small place. (I had invited a childhood friend, Nick, who I wrote it was fine if he brought his friend). We looked for a restaurant and decided on a Vietnamese pho place (cheaper than the Japanese restaurants surrounding it). I got seafood pho, like usual, but the broth was blander than what I've had in Richmond. Mmm, I want some more now. After that, we decided to go to Angel's Share to have one drink before Nick and his friend arrived. It was a nice, intimate "speakeasy" as the Yelp reviews said. Donna made a fine suggestion, and I'm glad we went together. My drink was "Royal Flush," which was a cucumber-infused cocktail with vodka and sake, I believe. The other drink I considered had champagne. When the waiter served it, there was about a minute delay before he poured the drink, so I thought for a moment I had ordered $13 vodka-infused cucumber! ha. Nick was still on his way, so we decided to check out another place that allowed more people.
We chose a Mexican restaurant, where from outside, we saw pitchers of sangria. We ordered white wine sangria. Then Nick and his friend came. They were amused by Viviane, which is often the case of a pretty, foreign girl w/o perfect English. Guess it was the combination of alcohol and her native German tongue that made her pronounce "willage," which Nick repeated a few times in jest! Poor guy, he's balding.. isn't that one of the worst things to happen to a young aspiring actor? Of course, there are many actors with sparser hair, but you lose a sex appeal factor, somewhat.
We decided to move on, and it was time for Miss Zhen to take the subway home before her work day later that morning! The four of us went to a place that was actually a 24 hr diner. Nick wanted to order breakfast food, but that didn't start until 2am. I got a mango martini, which I tasted garlic in a few sips. I should have complained, but was too far gone. V got electric lemonade. Nick's friend said twice he liked her, because she can be blunt. She told me afterward that alcohol makes her talk more, uninhibited, and hopes she wasn't too impolite! "Nonsense," I said. "They liked it." I, on the other hand, like Donna, can be less inhibited at first, but then I just get drowsy and quiet and don't have much to contribute to the conversation. V told Nick the name of her "willage," which he said he would look up. I was about to say you can do it now, or save it on your phone, but it was tipsy times, and more like a test, that he could remember the name. Before taking the subway back, Nick was hilariously proved wrong when he said the black cube statue on its side at Astor Place couldn't be moved. The tipsy, young women trying to make it budge were having difficulty, but then they got it. Funny moment.
So, rather cool to see a childhood friend (there's a photo of us as babies in CT on a blanket) who I hadn't seen in 5 years, and as always, Donna, one of my favorite people from college.
Whew, long blog! This one definitely less of a summary. Day 3 (tribulation involved) to follow.
Ok, from memory, day 2..
Last Sunday we had plans to visit Mme Tussaud's wax museum, which we made it to after 11:00am. I slept rather well at the hostel. Their breakfast of toast and watery coffee (which I didn't consume) left more to be desired, so we bought yogurt at a shop in Times Square. There were SO many wax figures there, 5 levels, I believe. By the 2nd to last level, Viviane was tired of posing. I wasn't in the mood to do interesting poses, so just smiled next to each one. I will upload the photos on Fbook (along with NYC pics from 3 months ago before I started classes!). I insisted to Viviane she had to pose with certain important American figures she didn't know, like FDR, Babe Ruth, and Bruce Springsteen. After 1.5 hours or so there, we were headed to Coney Island but needed lunch before the long subway ride. We stopped in Little Italy and had a nice outdoor lunch under a red umbrella with courteous staff at Palazzo. I like sitting at cafés and people-watching, something that can be done in cities. I heard a lot of Italian tourists this trip and wondered how many come to see "Little Italy," which is basically one street of restaurants. I hag gnocchi, which was good, but of course too generous a portion; no room for gelato! When I left, I forgot my plastic bag with flip flops for the beach, and the waiter ran after me, which was nice.
Then off to Coney Island, which takes 45 minutes or so. Unlike last August there (we were there closer to noon), the beach was packed! There was a Coney Island flea market going on, whose ad I cut out of a newspaper back in May. There weren't many vendors, but V and I were glad to get smoothies on such a hot day. I could have mixed mango with watermelon, but simply got watermelon. V got strawberry (her favorite) and kiwi. We put our feet in the water, and felt we had seen enough. Less than an hour at Coney Island, but it was so hot, and we had to get back to hostel to change before going out for dinner and drinks.
We made it to Astor Place subway stop just 10 minutes after planned; sucks my phone doesn't have service in the subway. There we met Donna and inquired whether 5 people could be accomodated at Angel's Share bar; alas, no.. strict 4 pax maximum at that small place. (I had invited a childhood friend, Nick, who I wrote it was fine if he brought his friend). We looked for a restaurant and decided on a Vietnamese pho place (cheaper than the Japanese restaurants surrounding it). I got seafood pho, like usual, but the broth was blander than what I've had in Richmond. Mmm, I want some more now. After that, we decided to go to Angel's Share to have one drink before Nick and his friend arrived. It was a nice, intimate "speakeasy" as the Yelp reviews said. Donna made a fine suggestion, and I'm glad we went together. My drink was "Royal Flush," which was a cucumber-infused cocktail with vodka and sake, I believe. The other drink I considered had champagne. When the waiter served it, there was about a minute delay before he poured the drink, so I thought for a moment I had ordered $13 vodka-infused cucumber! ha. Nick was still on his way, so we decided to check out another place that allowed more people.
We chose a Mexican restaurant, where from outside, we saw pitchers of sangria. We ordered white wine sangria. Then Nick and his friend came. They were amused by Viviane, which is often the case of a pretty, foreign girl w/o perfect English. Guess it was the combination of alcohol and her native German tongue that made her pronounce "willage," which Nick repeated a few times in jest! Poor guy, he's balding.. isn't that one of the worst things to happen to a young aspiring actor? Of course, there are many actors with sparser hair, but you lose a sex appeal factor, somewhat.
We decided to move on, and it was time for Miss Zhen to take the subway home before her work day later that morning! The four of us went to a place that was actually a 24 hr diner. Nick wanted to order breakfast food, but that didn't start until 2am. I got a mango martini, which I tasted garlic in a few sips. I should have complained, but was too far gone. V got electric lemonade. Nick's friend said twice he liked her, because she can be blunt. She told me afterward that alcohol makes her talk more, uninhibited, and hopes she wasn't too impolite! "Nonsense," I said. "They liked it." I, on the other hand, like Donna, can be less inhibited at first, but then I just get drowsy and quiet and don't have much to contribute to the conversation. V told Nick the name of her "willage," which he said he would look up. I was about to say you can do it now, or save it on your phone, but it was tipsy times, and more like a test, that he could remember the name. Before taking the subway back, Nick was hilariously proved wrong when he said the black cube statue on its side at Astor Place couldn't be moved. The tipsy, young women trying to make it budge were having difficulty, but then they got it. Funny moment.
So, rather cool to see a childhood friend (there's a photo of us as babies in CT on a blanket) who I hadn't seen in 5 years, and as always, Donna, one of my favorite people from college.
Whew, long blog! This one definitely less of a summary. Day 3 (tribulation involved) to follow.
8/20/09
NYC résumé Day 1
What I did in NYC last weekend, en bref (or maybe not so bref):
-Upon arrival at hostel around 8:30am, because I couldn't check in until 3, I took a walk down Lexington, Park, and Madison Avenues. On Saturday mornings in the summer, they close off sections of Park Ave so people can ride their bikes, jog, or walk safely; that was neat to see. Stopped at the Asia Society Museum, but it was mainly film showings, and I felt I needed to get back for when Viviane arrived. Stopped at "La Maison du chocolat" and thought of getting a drink, but it is $9.50 for a frozen chocolate.
- Back at the hostel, was pleasantly surprised when hostel staffer not only said I could check-in early (after noon), but that instead of the 8-bed female dorm, he placed us in a 2 bedroom by ourselves for no additional cost! The blasting A/C was welcome after I went up the 3 flights of stairs (good for the glutes and calves).
- After a shower, I wanted to lay down and sleep a little since I had taken the overnight Chinatown bus, but Viviane was due to arrive and hadn't called yet; I wondered if I were dialing her intl number properly. I finally got through to her, and learned she was lost, possibly on the other side of Central Park. I quickly got dressed, forgetting my day Subway card, and thought I'd have to take a taxi to find her. Luckily, she arrived soon after.
- Lunch at the nice little establishment "The furry dog" (?) next to hostel. Got "brunch" salad of spinach, hardboiled eggs, and cheese.
-Chinatown: Viviane hadn't found a purse her last time in NYC in May. She found one and was still happy with it the following days.
-SoHo/NoHo- Clothes shopping. I got a elbow-length sleeve shirt for $3.99. Viviane got a nice denim strapless sundress.
- Back at hostel, then walk to Central Park at sunset. The female Romanian tourist who took our photo said "So romantic," at which V and I looked at each other. The woman then said "You don't have to be lesbian for it to be romantic." Funny a Romanian said that.
- Then we got confused in the subway, and waited for trains that didn't come. So we didn't arrive at Indian restaurant until 10:00, taking a $5 ride in a hybrid taxi. We were the only diners at that time. We ordered paneer saag and lamb madras for old times sake. V got a sweet lassi. We were very full, and I felt sorry to not take the leftovers back, but it's not convenient when visiting a city.
-Upon arrival at hostel around 8:30am, because I couldn't check in until 3, I took a walk down Lexington, Park, and Madison Avenues. On Saturday mornings in the summer, they close off sections of Park Ave so people can ride their bikes, jog, or walk safely; that was neat to see. Stopped at the Asia Society Museum, but it was mainly film showings, and I felt I needed to get back for when Viviane arrived. Stopped at "La Maison du chocolat" and thought of getting a drink, but it is $9.50 for a frozen chocolate.
- Back at the hostel, was pleasantly surprised when hostel staffer not only said I could check-in early (after noon), but that instead of the 8-bed female dorm, he placed us in a 2 bedroom by ourselves for no additional cost! The blasting A/C was welcome after I went up the 3 flights of stairs (good for the glutes and calves).
- After a shower, I wanted to lay down and sleep a little since I had taken the overnight Chinatown bus, but Viviane was due to arrive and hadn't called yet; I wondered if I were dialing her intl number properly. I finally got through to her, and learned she was lost, possibly on the other side of Central Park. I quickly got dressed, forgetting my day Subway card, and thought I'd have to take a taxi to find her. Luckily, she arrived soon after.
- Lunch at the nice little establishment "The furry dog" (?) next to hostel. Got "brunch" salad of spinach, hardboiled eggs, and cheese.
-Chinatown: Viviane hadn't found a purse her last time in NYC in May. She found one and was still happy with it the following days.
-SoHo/NoHo- Clothes shopping. I got a elbow-length sleeve shirt for $3.99. Viviane got a nice denim strapless sundress.
- Back at hostel, then walk to Central Park at sunset. The female Romanian tourist who took our photo said "So romantic," at which V and I looked at each other. The woman then said "You don't have to be lesbian for it to be romantic." Funny a Romanian said that.
- Then we got confused in the subway, and waited for trains that didn't come. So we didn't arrive at Indian restaurant until 10:00, taking a $5 ride in a hybrid taxi. We were the only diners at that time. We ordered paneer saag and lamb madras for old times sake. V got a sweet lassi. We were very full, and I felt sorry to not take the leftovers back, but it's not convenient when visiting a city.
8/13/09
Feeling I need a retreat into wilderness again, away from daily deadlines, client requests, and fruitless calls to China
I'm plain frustrated right now about work and my situation, and because I work this god-awful schedule, don't have good friends to talk to about it when I get off of work.
I'm happy I'm going to NYC, but I have to make sure I relax. Last year before going I kind-of freaked out; NYC somewhat intimidates me.
Tonight at work I had a hard time breathing during my break, so much so, I felt like going home. When I feel like this, trying to breathe deeper doesn't seem to help; feel only sleeping, a sedative can. I had ctced Hong Kong, a transportation company, for a 3rd time, and they tell me different stuff each time. So I had to email the client once more to get final approval before booking it like she wanted. I friggin' hate helping people with China.. it's just a pain in the ass dealing with it by phone, if you're not there.
I'm not really sure how to make it better. I've been there 10 mo, and my anxiety and inability to relax in certain situations has probably worsened. I'm trying to find a better job, but it's a tedious task, for which I feel I don't have enough energy. That's another thing: I had a huge energy drop (there's another word, can't think of) after dinner tonight. It sucks. I hope acupuncture helps in releasing endorphins.
I'm happy I'm going to NYC, but I have to make sure I relax. Last year before going I kind-of freaked out; NYC somewhat intimidates me.
Tonight at work I had a hard time breathing during my break, so much so, I felt like going home. When I feel like this, trying to breathe deeper doesn't seem to help; feel only sleeping, a sedative can. I had ctced Hong Kong, a transportation company, for a 3rd time, and they tell me different stuff each time. So I had to email the client once more to get final approval before booking it like she wanted. I friggin' hate helping people with China.. it's just a pain in the ass dealing with it by phone, if you're not there.
I'm not really sure how to make it better. I've been there 10 mo, and my anxiety and inability to relax in certain situations has probably worsened. I'm trying to find a better job, but it's a tedious task, for which I feel I don't have enough energy. That's another thing: I had a huge energy drop (there's another word, can't think of) after dinner tonight. It sucks. I hope acupuncture helps in releasing endorphins.
8/5/09
Gearing for interviews, if I can just start networking,..
I bought a suit today! Stylish, gray one for $80.00 at Macy's. The saleswoman, who I've seen working there before, said at the end "Here you go, little one." Also bought a peachy pink shirt with satin bow in the back for $10 at NY & Co.
Yesterday before work I went to the employment center that used to be a public library.. a little nostalgic. I remember the guinea pig they had in a cage in the kids' section. I didn't make an appointment since I figure that's more for people who have lost their job, but picked up a bunch of free booklets on different subjets, like "Making contacts" and "Informational interviews." I need to start doing some of the latter. I basically only did 1 with a R-MWC alumna last year before being offered my current job.
Thought of going to rotary club mtg yday but my friend invited me to lunch at Super King Buffet (pan-Asian food). I said goodbye to Albane, her french ex. student. They have those mtgs weekly, so I'll try to go next wk.
RSVP'd to a women's ntwking lunch. It's in between 2 counseling sessions (which are on same street, so I'll be back and forth). The 2nd counselor is free of charge with work, and hope she can provide work-related advice. I plan to take advantage of any "free" service the company gives before I leave or am given the boot.
Felt a little unmotivated after finishing my course. I have my free time back, but the task of starting networking is daunting. It can be fun, just have to be in the right mindset.
Yesterday before work I went to the employment center that used to be a public library.. a little nostalgic. I remember the guinea pig they had in a cage in the kids' section. I didn't make an appointment since I figure that's more for people who have lost their job, but picked up a bunch of free booklets on different subjets, like "Making contacts" and "Informational interviews." I need to start doing some of the latter. I basically only did 1 with a R-MWC alumna last year before being offered my current job.
Thought of going to rotary club mtg yday but my friend invited me to lunch at Super King Buffet (pan-Asian food). I said goodbye to Albane, her french ex. student. They have those mtgs weekly, so I'll try to go next wk.
RSVP'd to a women's ntwking lunch. It's in between 2 counseling sessions (which are on same street, so I'll be back and forth). The 2nd counselor is free of charge with work, and hope she can provide work-related advice. I plan to take advantage of any "free" service the company gives before I leave or am given the boot.
Felt a little unmotivated after finishing my course. I have my free time back, but the task of starting networking is daunting. It can be fun, just have to be in the right mindset.
8/2/09
Last day of class tomor and I'm procrastinating..
I actually went to a club in my hometown last night, which I think is a first. Most of my friends here aren't into that. And maybe I'm not so into it, either. Guess it depends who you're with.. unless I have a close group of female friends, goofy guy friends, or a bf, it probably won't be as fun. I said I wouldn't drink much since I was DD and needed to finish coursework (and would be nice to do pilates) today. But I woke up and was tired and needed to sleep it off. I only had a cranberry vodka and a Heineken. Was fine to drive home. My friend from high school got tired really fast b/c she didn't sleep well the night before.
Today I did "Body step" class. I haven't done a step class in a while because of my schedule, but I remember why now I don't like it: it's hard, and I'm not terribly coordinated jumping off and on the step. In the gym steam room, a woman who is a friend of my best friend's parents recognized me, since I was the maid of honor.
Met Cindy (from R-M) for dinner at my new favorite Thai restaurant. We both got curry noodle, mine with scallops. Once again, I think I talked too much! Guess that's what happens when you severely limit my social life like it's been this last year: either I have little to say because I don't see people on a regular basis, or I talk about everything.
My friend's intended flight to Cali went up $25. I wanted to buy our tix before now; can't believe I didn't realize sooner SFO is bigger and therefore, a cheaper airport to fly into than San Jose! That changes my (loose) itinerary, b/c I thought we'd start at our friend's; with this, we'll start in San Francisco, do the sights there, take a winery shuttle in Napa Valley Halloween day (weird?), and drive back to Santa Clara, Maria's place, and visit Monterey Bay area. Hopefully the tickets will be sealed this week.
Today I did "Body step" class. I haven't done a step class in a while because of my schedule, but I remember why now I don't like it: it's hard, and I'm not terribly coordinated jumping off and on the step. In the gym steam room, a woman who is a friend of my best friend's parents recognized me, since I was the maid of honor.
Met Cindy (from R-M) for dinner at my new favorite Thai restaurant. We both got curry noodle, mine with scallops. Once again, I think I talked too much! Guess that's what happens when you severely limit my social life like it's been this last year: either I have little to say because I don't see people on a regular basis, or I talk about everything.
My friend's intended flight to Cali went up $25. I wanted to buy our tix before now; can't believe I didn't realize sooner SFO is bigger and therefore, a cheaper airport to fly into than San Jose! That changes my (loose) itinerary, b/c I thought we'd start at our friend's; with this, we'll start in San Francisco, do the sights there, take a winery shuttle in Napa Valley Halloween day (weird?), and drive back to Santa Clara, Maria's place, and visit Monterey Bay area. Hopefully the tickets will be sealed this week.
7/30/09
Feeling upbeat despite some things
It sounds bad, but when my coworkers are fired, once I get over the initial anxiety that I may be next and slight sadness they are gone, I'm somewhat relieved, because it means my job is a little safer (for now). Actually, yday's firings are a sign the whole dept (which isn't very big) is on its way down the tubes. I heard about them by text today thru my former co-worker (also fired) who used to sit next to me. It was one of those times I'm glad I didn't have my cell phone on me. Had I brought it to comm college (rather, left in the car), I would have seen her text after class and felt anxious on the way home instead of being able to enjoy the little shopping trip I did. I couldn't believe that the senior employee and another woman, who is a very good customer service rep, would be fired. The other night after I made a mistake and confided in one of the 3 male coworkers about my job security, he said they won't fire me b/c I speak French, and even though they don't seem like they care about the Canadian program, they do.
Stopped at employment agency where I stopped 3 weeks ago. I talked to a different woman and said I'd send a different version of resume. Rather annoying when I mention my employer, they try to weedle info out of me for their benefit, to see if they can work with them. Anyway, didn't get email back. I'd better! I may go to a Rotary club meeting next week since they meet at the delicious Italian resto near my house where my bday dinner was. I think it may be middle-aged people and up, but if I can network, that's the point.
It's half-price cheesecake day at Cheesecake Factory! (Where I had lunch, no dessert a week ago). The caesar salad and personal pizza with mini pepperoni's combo Marsha had seem good. My Lousiana chicken wasn't bad. If I go for c cake tomor, I may want the new Red Velvet, or Chocolate Tuxedo. mY god, you'd think I was PMSing. I came home and googled different restaurants in the area. Some places I'd like to go: Olive Gardnen, Outback Steakhouse, Rd Lobster, Longhorn Steak house, Brio, Anokhra Indian and new Tapas place near me. And I just ate Hot and Spicy Cheez it's and 100 Grand. Exercise needed tomorrow! Oh, I'm getting a deep-tissue massage :).
Stopped at employment agency where I stopped 3 weeks ago. I talked to a different woman and said I'd send a different version of resume. Rather annoying when I mention my employer, they try to weedle info out of me for their benefit, to see if they can work with them. Anyway, didn't get email back. I'd better! I may go to a Rotary club meeting next week since they meet at the delicious Italian resto near my house where my bday dinner was. I think it may be middle-aged people and up, but if I can network, that's the point.
It's half-price cheesecake day at Cheesecake Factory! (Where I had lunch, no dessert a week ago). The caesar salad and personal pizza with mini pepperoni's combo Marsha had seem good. My Lousiana chicken wasn't bad. If I go for c cake tomor, I may want the new Red Velvet, or Chocolate Tuxedo. mY god, you'd think I was PMSing. I came home and googled different restaurants in the area. Some places I'd like to go: Olive Gardnen, Outback Steakhouse, Rd Lobster, Longhorn Steak house, Brio, Anokhra Indian and new Tapas place near me. And I just ate Hot and Spicy Cheez it's and 100 Grand. Exercise needed tomorrow! Oh, I'm getting a deep-tissue massage :).
7/28/09
Power Point
It's my task to put together the group PowerPoint for tomorrow's biz class presentation-- took longer than I thought. I'm not as familiar with MS Office 2007, and got frustrated this morning changing one gp member's slides to coordinate with the "prettified" slides I did last night on my laptop with Office 2003. I didn't spend much time on the latter, which was chucked and a "theme" adopted instead.
Burger Night last night was better. I am, however, proud of myself for leaving earlier than the rest of the group. I feel strange doing that, that it seems snotty or something, but it was already 11:30pm, and I knew I need time to work on PPoint.
I took a sick day today because I didn't feel well starting last night-- lethargic, slight head and stomach aches. Leaves me more time to finish, prepare, and be rested for tomorrow's presentation. Ironic I take a sick day while working on a "healthcare reform" project!
Burger Night last night was better. I am, however, proud of myself for leaving earlier than the rest of the group. I feel strange doing that, that it seems snotty or something, but it was already 11:30pm, and I knew I need time to work on PPoint.
I took a sick day today because I didn't feel well starting last night-- lethargic, slight head and stomach aches. Leaves me more time to finish, prepare, and be rested for tomorrow's presentation. Ironic I take a sick day while working on a "healthcare reform" project!
7/27/09
Little sleep
Man, this horoscope is the most frank one I've come across, at least mine, for today.
http://twittascope.com/twittascope/?sign=2&day=Today (I'm Taurus)
http://twittascope.com/twittascope/?sign=2&day=Today (I'm Taurus)
7/24/09
Friday "Blueberry blitz"
Second time getting that shake at the gym. I got a card where if I buy 9, get one free. And it was punched twice.. sweet. But they're kind-of expensive, and I know I could make them myself if I took the time and effort.
Today is a friend's bday. We made plans to have lunch Sunday. I need to work on my paper, but know I need to make time to be social.
Got a cold sore on my lip.. hate that. Shows how stressed I've been.
Today is a friend's bday. We made plans to have lunch Sunday. I need to work on my paper, but know I need to make time to be social.
Got a cold sore on my lip.. hate that. Shows how stressed I've been.
7/21/09
l'été s'en va
(The summer is going by)
Hopefully, in the future I can look back on the summer I was 24, that wasn't really a summer because I work evenings, and think "Yes, it was an unhappy time, but it got better."
Really sucky 2/4 group members aren't pulling their weight; we present in a week.
Was lethargic today (maybe avoidance of my paper) but must be productive.
Hopefully, in the future I can look back on the summer I was 24, that wasn't really a summer because I work evenings, and think "Yes, it was an unhappy time, but it got better."
Really sucky 2/4 group members aren't pulling their weight; we present in a week.
Was lethargic today (maybe avoidance of my paper) but must be productive.
7/19/09
Crankiness
Plumb forgot about 12:30 Pilates class today (I've gone the last 2 Sundays), but tanned (barely) at the pool and swam laps. I still feel antsy and thought of going to gym now, but I'm clean, don't want to get sweaty, and have class tomorrow morn (will be early this time!).
Ugh, what is with 30/40 yr old men msging me on the meetup.com site? I want younger men!
I went on a grocery store trip to (avoid HW and) get sparkling water. I forgot that store only carries the small bottle of Perrier and Seltzer, so instead I got some delightfully salty frozen snacks, such as smiley-face potato snacks to help combat the crankiness in blog title.
Ugh, what is with 30/40 yr old men msging me on the meetup.com site? I want younger men!
I went on a grocery store trip to (avoid HW and) get sparkling water. I forgot that store only carries the small bottle of Perrier and Seltzer, so instead I got some delightfully salty frozen snacks, such as smiley-face potato snacks to help combat the crankiness in blog title.
I'm officially a concierge bitch
"bitch" as in I do others' crap work. Referring to, I ordered pizza last night for someone. Actually, it was kind-of fun for the first time, but reminds me, wtf is this? I don't care about getting people shit they can get themselves.
I like talking to Canadian men for some reason. I wanna go to Novia Scotia. So fun to say.
I like talking to Canadian men for some reason. I wanna go to Novia Scotia. So fun to say.
7/18/09
Job listing
Way to go Washington Post.. in the weekly email I asked them to send me, I'm given "Refrigeration Technician" as a suitable job listing.
I'm annoyed I didn't accomplish more this week while my mom and sis were away. Still have my 2 HW assignments and some work on rough-draft paper for group project. Just let it be over! I value my sleep too much. Can't believe the prof hasn't graded/ given comments on our first 3 assignments; I kind-of like to have feedback.
I'm annoyed I didn't accomplish more this week while my mom and sis were away. Still have my 2 HW assignments and some work on rough-draft paper for group project. Just let it be over! I value my sleep too much. Can't believe the prof hasn't graded/ given comments on our first 3 assignments; I kind-of like to have feedback.
7/15/09
Work anxiety
Ugh, I woke up after 5:30 this morn because I dreampt I forgot to enter information at work, which I did. Ironically, it was a call I listened to in my daily meeting with junior mgr. I could have emailed my company, but figured I'd talk directly.
It's taken care of, in 2 calls (b/c I forgot details).
Je m'en fous.
It's taken care of, in 2 calls (b/c I forgot details).
Je m'en fous.
7/14/09
Burger Night
Don't be fooled by the title, it wasn't a fun night. It wasn't a terrible night, but considering I have 1 weeknight off a week and work every other weekend, I want to be doing something fun the few times I go out, not sharing a table with middle-aged truckers dressed to impress. Yes, that was the situation tonight. I met up with a friend from HS at Capitale Ale house, where you can get $1-$2.50 burgers if you order any drink (pretty good deal, eh?).
Her acquaintances from meet-up arrived shortly before our food arrived. They're in their 30's, which is fine, but one of the women attracted the attention of guys at the bar, who wanted to join us. One woman asked us, because we didn't have to invite them. I didn't care. But when I saw them approach, I thought "Oh no, they're O L D." We're talking some with graying hair. And drunk. and loud. and hence, acting stupidly around younger women. I wanted to leave soon after but my friend wasn't ready yet. We didn't stay too long, and I followed my friend by car to the French student's host family's place because I offered to pick her up tomorrow to go to work. Well, at least I can appreciate younger men more next time I go out.
Her acquaintances from meet-up arrived shortly before our food arrived. They're in their 30's, which is fine, but one of the women attracted the attention of guys at the bar, who wanted to join us. One woman asked us, because we didn't have to invite them. I didn't care. But when I saw them approach, I thought "Oh no, they're O L D." We're talking some with graying hair. And drunk. and loud. and hence, acting stupidly around younger women. I wanted to leave soon after but my friend wasn't ready yet. We didn't stay too long, and I followed my friend by car to the French student's host family's place because I offered to pick her up tomorrow to go to work. Well, at least I can appreciate younger men more next time I go out.
7/13/09
Ras-le-bol
I so dislike my job right now.. all the petty details, and having to apologize for mistakes I didn't make myself.
And I'm so annoyed I'm taking this business class b/c I don't want to do the HW or group project. UUGGGGHHH. The book has some interesting points, but other than that, it's just terrible timing. Want to be done with the stupid thing.
And I'm so annoyed I'm taking this business class b/c I don't want to do the HW or group project. UUGGGGHHH. The book has some interesting points, but other than that, it's just terrible timing. Want to be done with the stupid thing.
1/21/09
GRE studying
I was lazy about studying for the GRE, then got motivated, but haven't studied as diligently as a I should. Trying to figure out how the actual test date, when set, will work with my work schedule.
Yday the cashier at Dollar General, a big, black guy, hit on me; hee hee. It was strange but the flattery made my day (Ellen reminded me our new president was sworn in, a bigger reason to be happy!).
Trippy dream before waking up. My manager was in it, and I was going to kick him in the face to defend myself. (Doesn't reflect my attitude toward him, he's a nice guy). Infanticide was going to take place by lowering a toddler on a pizza pusher (to go in big oven).
Waiting for Friday's paycheck, getting low; it's been like that the past 3 months mid month after paying Dad back. I could pay him less per month, but I want to get it over with.
Yday the cashier at Dollar General, a big, black guy, hit on me; hee hee. It was strange but the flattery made my day (Ellen reminded me our new president was sworn in, a bigger reason to be happy!).
Trippy dream before waking up. My manager was in it, and I was going to kick him in the face to defend myself. (Doesn't reflect my attitude toward him, he's a nice guy). Infanticide was going to take place by lowering a toddler on a pizza pusher (to go in big oven).
Waiting for Friday's paycheck, getting low; it's been like that the past 3 months mid month after paying Dad back. I could pay him less per month, but I want to get it over with.
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