Last day of 2010

Looking back on this year, it was a difficult one but also a joyful one. Difficult because I struggled with unhappiness and stress due to working an unfulfilling call center job evening shift. Joyful because I was allowed to work normal business hours starting late April and in turn, had a better social life and in turn, met my boyfriend, who, right now at least, I feel could be the love of my life. And let's not forget a reason for joy was being laid off, yep, from the job I hated. Since then, it was been a bit difficult keeping busy without a regular schedule but I'm managing. It would be so much harder without the love and support of my boyfriend.

House to myself

Within an hour, I didn't like the quiet and felt lonely :(. Not sure why I thought it was a good idea, ha. It's ok. Must have noise, like international radio on iTunes. Now it's Craig Ferguson online, who I haven't watched since my work hours changed to 8am. I don't like to stay up that late and rarely watch tv.

Snowy day

It keeps snowing. I think snow is pretty but I dislike how it shuts one in. Good thing I'm in a cleaning mood.

I've been waking up ~3am every night briefly. Usually I sleep uninterrupted.

Today is Vicente's bday.

We almost could have lost another bird due to my sister's foolishness just now. She let our neighbors' labs into the house, and the puppy almost got Joey. Man oh man. This blog is like therapy for me, for real.

Hopeful trip to France

Yes, May (or June) would be a lot more ideal, warmer, sunnier weather but if my chief aim is to speak French, one can do that year-round :).
Gosh, I'm gonna have to buy a nice camera. An SLR like my sis' would be nice.

I'll be there before Easter :) (April 24). Bakeries and shops should have nice window displays.

Is it worth $150 in train fare to make it to Italy briefly to savor some good pasta, bread, gelato, and hopefully, ambiance? Genoa is the closest big city to my friend. I just know it's known for salami.

Oh, wonder if I should buy one of those small video cameras. We have a video cam but it's cheapo. If I'm gonna go, I want quality images. Because who knows the next time I'll be back.

Ok, nix that

I'm not used to writing much by hand anymore; my hand gets tired when I write in my journal. I like typing.

So... I think a trip to France is meant to be. I'm getting signs. Like today a Canadian teacher from my time in China uploaded pics of her time in France. I don't know what she's doing there currently with her Scandinavian boyfriend but she rarely uses Facebook. I also received the Junior Year in France alumnae bulletin today. And then Donna emailed me low fares on Iberia Airlines (cheaper than Air France!). These are from NYC, though, which is inconvenient. I will check how much from RIC but probably at least $100 more.

I am full. 2 nights in a row I went out to dinner with friends and had eyes bigger than my stomach. Why do I torture myself?

I may close this blog

and just use my hand-written journal instead. First, I need to save and print my entries.

Verbose dad is annoying! He's extremes, it seems: either little to say or neverending! He just told me to fake enthusiasm at job interviews in the future. Kind-of a bummer that I wasn't offered the job I "interviewed" for yday but I wasn't planning on taking it anyway because I found it too administrative, boring in nature. Ironic that I was posting a LinkedIn status that I decided not to take it and then get the call from the temp agency. The agent asked me some ?s about my experience for her own info and said the way the job was originally presented is different. I doubt she'll have many more offers anytime soon but it's good we "reconnected," in a way.

Cloud Nine

Yday I looked up the definition of "cloud nine" to make sure I was using it correctly. (I wanted to use it to explain my state since dating and to offer an explanation why I'm not on top of event dates). I ended up using "head in the clouds" instead, which is probably more correct. Just now I saw on NY Times that it was used at the end of an article that caught my eye, about a huge mass wedding in Taiwan because of the auspicious date, the number 9 meaning "longevity."

My Swiss friend is here!

She arrived by Greyhound from Philly. Even though we saw each other twice last year in NYC, it's a whole different feeling to be driving her in my hometown. It's really neat! I feel fortunate that I have wealthy friends who are able to come visit me :). After Richmond, she will go to Washington. I wish I could go with her. Maybe I could somehow take Tuesday off.. could take a sick day if I have any left. I was tempted to take a sick day yesterday because I had gotten home at 1am and knew cleaning was still necessary before she came but remembered I did that before New Year's day last year, jeopardizing the double pay status of working on a holiday. Actually, it may be both the day before and after one must work; must check.

We went home, where my dad greeted her in French, forgetting she's Swiss German. She gave us some Swiss chocolate (Lindt), and I wondered if she had actually brought it from Switzerland (b/c it's what we can get here). She later said she bought it here. Makes sense.. it's summer.

Then we went to the Indian restaurant near work. There is one near my house and another near my high school, but I figured the ambiance would be best there. There was a private function going on in a room when we got there. Also, a cute, chubby 1.5 yr old Indian boy in his mom's lap kept me entertained. The food took a while to come out, I guess partly b/c we ordered Tandoori. The veg masala dish was frozen mixed vegetables, which made me think I could make it at home. So, not that impressed for the price I paid but Viviane liked it, and we both left full (at 10:00pm!)

I thought of walking in Carytown and Maymont today. Yesterday I got a text that a friend of a friend is inviting people to her lakehouse on Sunday-- that'd be awesome!

This dating thing

Is a pretty great distraction. It causes me some anxiety, of course, because it's new but overall, it's a good anxiety. It's so nice to feel he likes me exactly as I am. I suggested we jog together at his place tomorrow then make dinner and watch "Ace Ventura: When Nature Calls" (one of my favorite movies from childhood).

Makes me feel old when I'm somewhat attracted to and feel I get along well with an amiable distant cousin who turns out to be a senior in HS! hahaha

My grandfather's death

I feel I haven't experienced many deaths in my life. I feel like this is the first major one. It's Friday the 13th. My PaPa died around 1:30am this morning. The last time I visited them, around Father's Day, I was in a really bad mood (about my life, job situation). I could have visited them after my interview in Norfolk last month but my grandma wasn't feeling well; was instructed by my mom not to stop by but they had expected me nonetheless. I will be ever grateful I talked to him yesterday on the phone. How did I know to call him? I had been thinking about them because we hadn't talked in a while. During my lunch break, I was going to heat up a frozen meal but there was ice covering it (the plastic spork didn't aid me much). So I decided to walk to the gas station which has food. Had I not decided that, had a friend not picked up the phone (after which I decided to call my grandparents), I wouldn't have heard his voice for the last time. He asked how I was, to which I said, "Fine," and he replied, "Well, if you're fine, then I'm fine" or something like that. I asked him if I should go on a trip to Nicaragua (a friend asked me last week). He said he doesn't have up-to-date knowledge but figured it would be safe. Then he passed the phone to Gramma, who I had to cut off because she can talk a lot, and I hadn't yet gotten food on my 30 minute break!

Our trip to Myrtle beach next week is a trip from him. We should thoroughly enjoy it in gratitude and honor of him and take family photos (who knows how many more there will be, given I'm 25). I will have my own car there! (Although not looking forward to the 12 hour round trip.) My sis and I have different music tastes.

Going to the renovated art museum with my parents today

It reopened about 3 months ago; finally going ! It's free. Should be nice.

I'm realized fully that I do have a melancholy side, and I simply (easier said than done) have to dispel these thoughts that creep up; keep active, thinking about my next plans and appreciating times in my past (and the present).

ENd of day

I had a Vietnamese sandwich but it wasn't that good: bread was dry (was evening after all), filling contained a stringy thing that I couldn't tell if it was animal or plant. Also got taro milk tea which I forgot is an acquired taste, so down the drain it went.

I had a good massage. I enjoy talking to masseuses about my travels. Jocelyn, was her name, has been to Thailand and Vietnam the last few years. Then what's really weird, and shows how small Richmond is (which I like), I saw from my car window the Kristin recruiter who I talked to yesterday and today; she was crossing the street!

This is so sweet: I wrote my all-time fave teacher that I was looking for a job, and he wrote, "People would be crazy to not want you working for them."

Tuesday, day off

I've had seafood 2 days in a row: yesterday, fried clam strips (I know, unhealthy) and today, scallops (my fave) and shrimp with pasta (grocery store-prepared).

It's kinda funny my former acupuncturist, about 10 yrs older than me, comments on my wall posts, even replying to my French friend's (who I met in China) comment in French. I just re: to the friend, ignoring acupuncturist. Talk about connecting people who are otherwise strangers!

Visited my Russian lady today (senior citizen). She actually wanted homework! I brought a little story book of easy Russian and read aloud. She thought it would be good for her to translate it. I didn't even have that in mind, just wanted to practice my Russian. So after I read the short first section (and was enough! gosh, how 3+ yrs can make a difference), she asked if she could keep it til next time. It's kinda nice I don't have to prepare anything for a change. I've got enough to do!

I have a massage today :). Not going to salsa b/c I don't to see that guy for a while. Whaddaya know, the temp agency I spoke to today proposed an Admin position at the power company where he works, lol.

I had a funny dream last night that I told my dad. I think waking naturally, without alarm clock, really makes a difference in remembering dreams. I dreampt I was in France on a Sunday evening and needed to buy a headscarf b/c I was going to Iran or Irak. Of course, on Sundays, and especially, the evening, many stores in France are closed. I wandered into a lit-up place where a bunch of high school American girls were sitting cross legged on the floor, almost like Girl Scouts or a church group. There I met a Kristin from high school, who I did run into last December but otherwise hadn't seen since graduation. Strange how ppl from my past can randomly show up in dreams. The idea I was going to Iran/Iraq and needed to cover in a headscarf is funny.

Book Exchange

First, I want to write that at Trader Joe supermarket yesterday my total came to $8.88. The cashier remarked on this, that it's a lucky # in China. I said, "Yes, I lived there 2 years ago." He said his mom was born there, his grandma in Hong Kong, and his great grandmother in Macau. If he hadn't said, I wouldn't have thought him to look half-Chinese but then I could see it. While there, the song "San Francisco (Be Sure to Wear Flowers in Your Hair)" played :). Reminded me of my very brief sejour in San Fran last fall. Thought it fitting, playing in a Cali-based supermarket.

After lunch, I decided to read another French short story and take a nap. I was falling asleep with the light on, so figured a nap wouldn't hurt. Woke up an hour later feeling yuck. Like, not well rested, dehydrated, kinda sick. Don't you hate when you feel you deserve a nap then it makes you feel worse? I held the ladder while my dad cleaned out our gutters. Then I left for a meetup book exhange (my first time). It was a group of introverted ladies but conversation flowed more after we described our books. I felt slightly like a cop-out b/c in my mad dash to bring a novel there, I chose a book I hadn't read, at least I don't think so. It's Frances Mayes' (R-MWC grad!) "A year in the world." It's about her travels in Portugal, Spain, Morocco, Greece, Turkey. I was relieved someone "took" it to read b/c it wasn't a great sell, ha. I was somewhat glad to hear the woman next to me is also living at home (she's older) and also experienced a downsizing at a job she hated. She knows now what field to pursue. I was going to pick a book about a fantasy world accessed thru a London tube portal (quite similar to the British movie I watched this morning where the main character leaves Jane Austen's time to arrive back in London via a porta-potty!).

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Neverwhere Another woman beat me to it but that' ok. I picked Barbara Santana' "Between the Stars" about a young biracial woman in San Fran in the 60's (going back to beg. of post!). I really think parallels in life happen for a reason.

Refreshing countryside visit

Regarding last entry, I cancelled on him, which is just as well. I felt a little flakey doing that but it's better than going thru with something I didn't want to do after all.

I had a nice visit with my friend at her parents' house in the country yesterday. We slept in a tent outside.

My sis is playing her annoying loud music.

How weird is this? I wrote a bunch of class secretaries from R-M (looking thru Bulletin), and the one who has replied so far wrote in the first sentences, "I wish I could be of more help but I was diagnosed with a benign brain tumor that has disabled my left eye!" How sad.

Want a nap. The weather can't make up its mind. It looks like it will storm then becomes sunny.

Wasn't expecting to also get motivational speech from zumba class today but I rather liked it. She said on the count of 3, we were to say, "I'm awesome!" Uno, dos, tres.. "I'm awesome!" We're also fabulous :).

Well well well, who's that calling?

(Peter, Paul, and Mary song)

hehehe, I just rcvd confirmation that that guy is too immature for me. I wrote him I may go to Myrtle Beach, and he re: 'U suck!" I don't need a 25 yr-old guy I'm attracted to to tell me that! It's quite funny, really. I had suggested we go to a park tomorrow since I was busy when he asked. Unless he really surprises me, that may be the only time we meet up. Now a friend wants to go to salsa but I want to stop going to avoid him for a little!

Hot Thursday, day off

A few weeks ago, I wrote down in a dept store an old man saying about "She Drives Me Crazy" song playing, "There's that dumb song again." I thought this was funny b/c it was my favorite when I was 5.

Cockatiel and French present

After getting back from my dentist apt (no cavities -YAY!- but close), I saw Annie's package to me from Paris. Inside was a paperback book of short stories (I love short stories!), delicate gold crystal earrings, and.. a Winnie the Pooh and Piglet French bday card! It's kinda funny getting such card for a belated 25th but at the same time, I think we shouldn't forget the kid in us :). For example, I bought Teddy Grahams last week. I still like the little Juicy Juice juice boxes. Food in small sizes is fun (and can be less calorific).

The last 2 days, I wasn't sure when my mom would come home with the cockatiel. I wanted to be home when Kelly saw it for the first time. This happened last night after 11pm when she was home from work. She walked in and didn't see the green blanket covering a cage on a table at first. I caught it on video :). Joey will take a while to warm up to us. It's weird having a bird with feathers on its head that stick up. Mom put him on my shoulder last night, and it's also strange having a taller bird closer to eye level.

Today I'm going to shadow a company, something I haven't done in months. The transition started yesterday.. the first coworker had her last day in our dept because she's switching to another. That should signal to me to get out of there soon! I don't want to be there at the end when we're really short-staffed, especially since I've wanted out of there for so long. But at the same time, I'm looking for a better job not within the company; it's easier for my coworkers who don't have as high standards and are fine staying with that company.

pool

hahaha, I just logged onto the dating site b/c someone wrote me and it was suggested I may like my best friend's brother! I recognized his photo. And if he checks it, he'll see me as having viewed!

Happy 4th

I'm unpatriotic without realizing it: I bought some Molson Canadian beer to bring to a July 4th party today! I thought I'd bring it to the party hosted by English but they have everything covered. I can go to 3 parties if I want. A few days ago, I didn't know what my plans were for the holiday, kind-of hoping it wouldn't just be with the fam.

After I got back from my interview the other day, my mom told me (from the news) that the job market is still rough, somewhat plateau'd. Ay.

Happy Hour

The Happy Hour I organized was good. I had watermelon and pomegranate cosmos. I ordered ceviche, which I confused with paella, I guess. It arrived and was not at all filling. Two girls got pizza and offered me some, which I took one up on on a slice. They want to have a weekly happy hour, maybe at a wine bar. Because of meeting with them, I now have plans this weekend: brunch Sat (which I've been wanting to do) and a 4th of July party with Brits!
I was surprised to get a call from from Nadal-looking guy from salsa just now. (I thought last night how he looks like Nadal, then I saw the end of a Wimbledon match today that Nadal won). He apologized how he acted last night, dancing and then saying we should sit down. He was very tired. Anyway, he didn't need to apologize. I kind-of get a weird vibe from this guy. I'm thinking, "Why am I initially attracted to guys who are similar to me (and therefore not compatible)?: It was strange to be called by a guy again; hopefully more of that will happen by guys I like in the not so distant future. Ok, I've procrastinated on iview prep too long!

I shall believe

That song by Sheryl Crow has been in my head.

You gotta love Randy Mac alums' willingness to help out fellow alums. I feel other colleges/ universities may be the same way but a smaller college's like ours more so. That being said the Career Network on RC's website sucks. You can't search by city, just state. I had to browse through all the VA listings to find alums in Norfolk (which I had never done before, as I just recently considered a career there).

I must prepare for the interview but am procrastinating. Last night I was looking up other companies and people to contact to maximize my trip there and started to get anxious and a headache. Then I went over to my neighbors' (they're on vacation, and my sis was watching TV there) to pet their dog to help calm me down! I didn't want to get ready to go nor drive downtown to go to salsa but I forced myself. The guy I mentioned a week ago was there but I didn't enjoy his company as much, partly because I wasn't as talkative. I didn't dance as much, either.

I organized a Happy hour for the first time for tonight. Think I'll limit myself to one drink.

Didn't feel like getting up to go to Zumba today. It's really cool outside, should go for a bike ride or walk.

Yesterday a funny coworker got mad at me (not really directly) because I helped cause her to lose information (it's a common problem at work, faulty comp program). It's her fault she didn't save often. I vented this. She joked that Jesus (her name for me, since I look so biblical) stuck a knife up her ass! I'm also called Jesus (with Spanish pronunciation) and Gandhi. Well, at least we have camaraderie. My Phillipino coworker who is a hoot said in her funny voice (I think it's partly on purpose), "Who wants cookies?" Then, "This is goooood." (You have to be there) The last 2 months I enjoyed working with those two, they lighten things up. Before I left, they got a laugh over my spelling. I was in a rush and in my notes, spelled Philadelphia wrong. Also a restaurant "Buddhakan," I spelled "Buttakan."

First for everything

hehe.. I accidentally dropped a bottle of wine in the grocery store. (perfectly sober) It was only $8.99, not too big a mess. They gave me another to replace it.

I spent a lot of money the last few days on beauty things. One has to consider it an investment though. I got the Clarisonic face and body massager to remove impurities.

DC visit with Shanghainese

I'm tired but wanted to write how cool it is that I was at the White House when Russian President Medvedev and his caravan went by! And they went to a burger place! Gotta love it.

The top story on BBC right now is a photo of him and Obama at said burger joint.

http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/world/europe/10404912.stm

Salsa

Last night I went salsa dancing for the first time in over 5 weeks, I think. I'm glad I did! I talked to a young, cute Hispanic guy most of the time. I thought I heard him say he was "35," to which I repeated it incredulously. I told him I was 24 then 25, forgetting that changed over a month ago. I enjoyed talking with him but he was a little strange. That being said, I feel he's somewhat similar to me! Not so confident. But definitely smiley and in good humor, which is attractive. He said he works 4 days a week at 6:30am. Ow! And that before we left at 12:30, he had to make flan to bring to work. He didn't have to but he'd been putting it off. It takes 2.5 hours. I definitely wouldn't have done it. So after this event, I realized... I need to be around more men! I like talking to them and shouldn't be interested in someone just because he's amiable, youthful, and cute.

I'm grateful right now I'm still living at home but I really hate the drive back from downtown. It's either that occasionally or every day to work. Next week I'll be dogsitting for my friend. Will have to pay 70 cents or more a day in tolls. I hate friggin' tolls. The dog is cute but he better not try to run away on me!

Starbuck's

Had to buy a gift card to use WiFi here. Before I knew that, figured Sbuck's ambiance was better. I like the background music. "Funky funky" and "Hit the road, Jack."
Gonna watch World Cup today since I'm off.
Am going to DC 2mor.

Mis compadres

Yesterday my favorite coworker wrote me, "Lady Linsey, how are you?" Then "you're royalty, aren't you? haha."
After a big event at work where I wished him a good evening despite the circumstances, he wrote, "You my lady,
Remember this. There is always a bright star and a positive aspect or silver lining in every circumstance. Strive to look for the positive in everything and zoom on it."
I'm glad I have him as a coworker.

Light at the end of the tunnel

I have 2 new freckles on my forehead. The appearance of new freckles is weird.

Loni Love

I saw Loni Love at the local comedy club last night (went for the first time). I enjoyed it but didn't laugh a whole lot.

I'm amused my Indian friend from high school wrote me "Hai." Wasn't sure if she meant "hey" or "hi."

I went to my grandparents' today, who I hadn't seen since Christmas. They had wanted to see me. I predicted I wouldn't have anything to say because not much positive/ exciting has been going on, and I wasn't in the highest spirits. My grandma said, "C'mon, Lins, you've had an exciting life, you've got to give us something" to which I just smiled. Being on the porch, sitting on chairs that I've sat on for 10+ years at family events, I remembered what history I have there and felt nostalgic, because when I feel things are bleak, I forget all the great things from the past.

Am going to a going-away party tonight. I should soak it up because it's prob one of few summer parties I'll go to.

An American friend in China wrote me, "Remember, the most important thing about getting what you want is to believe that it is possible now." Those are good words of advice.

I don't have plans tomorrow, which is problematic for me. I'm grateful I've had both Mother and Father's day off. I got a 50cent book at a consignment store today I can give my dad. I want to say we have it but I can give to someone else in that event.

Post-grad

Sitting at my sister's graduation as I heard speeches about moving on to a new chapter in one's life, la dee da, I thought, "How pertinent," as I close a chapter on this job. I laughed during the ceremony when chorale singers would rush at the mike for their part when switching places. One guy pretty much shoved the guy before him out of the way. Then my sis said she thought something was wrong with him. Oops.
This evening, I started to think, "Maybe I should wait til I hear if I can work part-time (5 days from now). This is because, I turned in 2 apps today but now that I'm more "clear-headed," it seems a bit foolish to give notice when I don't have something lined up. I don't know when I will have something concrete. Hilton said they'd call Mon or Tues but didn't. Don't think I'd like the positions they offered or working at a hotel, anyway.

Sister's graduation today

I'm glad my sis registered at the local community college. She's thinking of applying to Hot Topic and a photo studio. It's unfortunate she doesn't have a car.

I'm wrestling with a lot of thoughts right now. I have regrets that I know I should in a way sweep under the rug right now to help move on. I'm relieved I'm quitting my job but am again facing the unknown, which I last felt before my bday when I changed to day shift and had a quarter-life crisis. It's just amazing how I lost perspective with this job. I forgot all the great experiences I've had in my life and almost discounted (?) them, only focusing on the present and thinking the future was bleak.

I went to hatha yoga last night but I got anxious, knowing that we are to focus on breathing, and I am a shallow breather. That, and I didn't like the background music as much. I liked it when it was instrumental Chinese.

New leaf

I bought a watermelon today :).
Getting a pimple and have a networking social tomor; oh well.
Agh, I don't have much to write at the moment. Want to job search a little and vege before going out tonight for dinner, to see an apt, and French meet-up.

Thank god for Tums

That sounds like the start to a TMI post. I'm a wimp when it comes to pain so when I get stomach cramps, I feel I could die. Then I get annoyed that eating out can produce that result; being social often involves a meal out. I don't want to be hungry and think, "This is great, socializing with friends" then get these terrible cramps. So Tums is great.

It has some faults, this site..

It matches me to people near me, which includes Durham, NC; I'm not interested in long-distance! I got 9 views and 1 msg from a nerdy guy. I decided to add to to "Who should message me:' "I want to spend more time outdoors, so would be nice if that interests you as well. I'm not into gamers." I added that because of the profiles I perused yesterday, a few said they're into gaming, which I can't stand. I need someone down to earth, not with his head in a fantasy world! I thought maybe this will distract me from my job search, but if some dates come of it, it may actually help other aspects in my life.

This should make for some interesting posts while it lasts

Per a friend's suggestion, I joined a dating site I hadn't heard of. It's popular in her college town. I look at guys in the area and recognize 3 from high school (I think).

Working on the weekend

Yesterday at work was quiet, no management around. I appreciated the less relaxed atmosphere but was almost bored. I called restaurants in Paris that have really expensive menus. Also called Italy with an interpreter (turns out waiter spoke great English) and was pleased to recognize some Italian.
I haven't been waking up early enough to eat breakfast. I should just bring some milk and cereal to work for the week (before they clean the fridge this Friday).
Shoot, I have to mail in a pre-payment and form for a doc's apt and totally wasn't counting on the post office not being open tomorrow; I may have to take it in person b/c it's required before noon the day before, Wed. Ugh. I don't have a job where I can take an hour break.
I enjoyed talking with a college friend last night. I had proposed we see a comedian but then I wasn't sure I'd enjoy it, and she didn't care to go. In the end, I could only think of getting sangria up the road at the Spanish restaurant. She appreciated that because in Madison, where she goes to grad school, it's beer everywhere, not so much wine. I wasn't paying attention (guess just as well) to a couple behind us who were having a fight. I noticed the woman had left, and that the guy was sitting by himself for a few. Then another couple was apparently arguing. Ha, in that sense, I could do without a boyfriend.

Called a friend the other night and self-imposed a sleepover, haha. I will be in Charlottesville for a concert, and whenever I drive an hour somewhere and would go home at night, I prefer to stay (except for a Saturday night when I want some nightlife). The pork and bourbon festival is next weekend; think some friends will go. There is another food fest on Sunday that I invited the Cville friend to.
Ok, gots to go, whoah!

DC trip with Catherine

I try to keep a journal when I'm travelling but find I don't often feel like writing about it in my blog after the fact; it's like, it's passed and time to do other things.
Because I didn't have WiFi yday at my cousin's, I wrote things in my travel journal, so will write from there. Now I know the wireless code is on the box!

Actually, I wrote in French while in DC, so will translate.

I slept very well at the hostel. While I am young, and even after, I think I prefer hostels because hotels are so solitary; here one can meet Swiss, Chinese, French..
At the Asian Festival, there were 3 stages for peformances. I took a lot of photos. I felt a bit lonely there, thinking, "Why didn't I ask a friend to join?" but then this feeling passed, partially because there was interesting bellydancing and nice costumes to see.
Catherine and I arranged to meet up at 6pm at the hostel. We decided to try a Mexican restaurant that specializes in Oaxacan cuisine. I love that word "Oaxaca." I want to go just for the name (and blue corn tortillas). I had printed a 10% discount coupon. We walked a lot to arrive there. There wasn't a free table when we got there so we had a drink at the bar downstairs. Mojito ;). The hostess came down shortly after to say we could sit upstairs. The menu consisted of mole for the most part. I had amarillito (yellow) and Catherine, negro, with chicken. Then we walked to go back. I saw "Matchbox," where I had brunch with a friend a few months ago. There I had beer from San Fran infused with watermelon juice!

On Sunday we had breakfast at the hostel, which I last did with my sister and dad 2 Septembers ago before I started this dismal job. I proposed we go to Pentagon City shopping mall, where I had been last time, but it didn't open til 11. In the meantime, we looked at magazines in Borders and sipped on mango tea (Catherine) and early grey caramel latte (me) from Caribou. I wish I had left my backpack at the hostel for a small fee since we were back in that area later. We went to the Chinese cultural center to take a free tour on Chinese and German immigrants. I wasn't as interested in the latter. The tour didn't keep my interest very well but Catherine liked it, which is good. I felt lucky we were there 1 of the 2 weekends in the year they give such tours :). After that, we split ways because she wanted to go to the Capitol again. I went to a food festival but took a long time to walk there and wasn't that impressed with it. Then I went to search a metro and walked more than necessary, going to Farragut North on red line when I really wanted blue line. Then not paying attention, listening to iPod, took orange instead of blue train, and had to back track! But I met a captain in the Navy working in the Pentagon who gave me his card for a letter of rec, if needed! (Parents' age). Then I drove back to Richmond and felt anxious, that I had to pack to stay at my cousin's that week (and also probably not looking forward to work).

Life is strange

I don't write that title in a depressed, brooding way. It's my way of articulating how it's funny people the same age have different time paths. Like I went to my best friend's house for dinner tonight. She was surprised I was early because I'm usually late; yeah, something I need to work on. I got this feeling, not a good self-esteem feeling, that, "What am I doing here? I usually don't have fun when I come over and end up feeling worse." She has a house and playful cute dog (same for husband, ha), garden with strawberries. I'm happy for her. Going back to the strange, is it because I chose a women's college that I didn't meet a guy sooner? I don't regret my experiences. I do regret the time since I've been back from China, that I didn't plan my career and still without direction. I hesitated to put the depressed status (in French) the other night:
"I no longer know what I want." I felt better that a fellow classmate wrote that she feels the same.
So seems everyone's getting prego, including a girl I briefly knew in college out West and my first year roommate! The latter, that's big news! I responded properly this time, unlike the text to my senior questioning if it were planned. Oops. Guess pregnant after 2 yrs of marriage is customary. More baby clothes for me to buy! I do enjoy baby clothes, just not so much the being inside. jk!

Career fair

Fair today hosted by VA Tech was alright. No bright prospects but then, I didn't expect much. Afterward, I went to a nice grocery store and bought eggplant empanadas which I ate in the car with a nice view of tanned, young construction workers with their shirts off. :) Yummy (from a distance).
Couldn't find a bra at the mall. I hate bra shopping. Got jeans, though, which is good since I went up a pant size, and some of my pants no longer fit. Bought some Clinique products, where I was persuaded to sign up for Macy's credit card so I could save $15.

After yoga class, ran into a neighbor who I used to babysit for. Got an update on the kids I used to babysit and gave an update on myself. I love running into and catching up with people.

Going to the midnight premiere of 3D Shrek.. it's at a theater 25 minutes away! I'm going because an acquaintance of mine is, and I don't think I've ever gone to a midnight premiere.

Wednesday

Last night after getting out of work an hour more than I'd like and going home to pick up stuff to spend the night's at a friends,' I went to a networking event across the river at a brewery with a nice patio with a view of the James. There I talked to a weird guy in his 50's or so with sepia-tinted aviator glasses. I recognized one guy who was there with his son, I presume, who seemed somewhat interested in me, maybe because I was close in age. Then my dad arrived, and I wondered if this would be beneficial or detrimental, my dad helping network for me. He started talking to a group of guys, at which point I went to grab some chicken wings to get my $5 worth. I was stopped by a somewhat strange-looking but friendly guy who was very helpful in trying to think of career paths I could pursue. We must have talked for 15 minutes. He gave me a company to contact, a client of his. I didn't give him my card. I remember his name, Cliff, and his company. By then the chicken wings were gone. My dad had passed out my resume (not even the latest version did I bring) b/c I had left the folder on the table. He decided to stick around and met some people whose cards he got for me. So, I guess I like and appreciate when my dad networks for me not in my presence!

Post- 1st apt viewing

I've yet to do an Excel sheet of expenses. Saw the vegan's apt yday. I definitely like the area (right near the newly renovated art museum) which is quiet yet not far off main drag. It was hard for me to visualize living there, however, because there were a lot of boxes. The little porch is nice with a view of an oak tree and parking behind. The pugs are cute. He's talkative, which is probably a better trait, since I haven't felt at ease completely with my quiet former roommates. I do think it would be better for me to live with a female, though. I was kinda annoyed at my friend who suggested I live with her husband's friend (who's currently living with them til they find a place). I wrote I'd consider it (keeping my options open) but then told her I don't want to spend a lot of time on this search, I'd almost rather find someone already in an apart needing a roommate, easier. She said she'd give my info to him in case so then I get a call from him on a day I was so pissed about my job. Then when I haven't called him back, she calls me saying he would like to know ASAP if I'm interested. I swear, sometimes she suggests things that would benefit her but she's not at all thinking of what it might be for the person. I left her a VM restating what I said before and that I probably want a female in the end.

I'm going to spend the night with a friend from HS to see what it's like to drive from downtown and get to work before 8am. Yesterday I got behind the damn school bus and just missed being late by a minute :(.

Room search

I just texted a former coworker of mine who has gone on to be a pastor, which is what her training is. I wanted some affirmation from her that I wasn't being unwise in looking for an apt downtown before finding a new job.

Let's weigh the pros and cons:
Pros:
1. Social life will be closer, not as much of a "trek," and perhaps I'll be more in the know about things happening
2. Sharing a place with someone will help me gain more perspective
3. I won't be around my parents and sis, who, as much as I love them, I feel it's time to "cut the chord" and grow a bit, fend on my own. I actually think it'd be better not to live with my sis because we are at a stage right now where I don't understand her, and her actions (or lack of) make me pessimistic. I told myself when I got back from China, I'd live in Richmond til she graduated. Well, she's about to graduate.
4. Optimistically, perhaps meeting more people will make way for networking to land a better job down the road

Cons:
1. It will be hard to see that money go. It may be 1/4 of my month's pay, and then I must assume since I'll be more social, I'll be spending more on such outings. (I would like a place where people can come over and relax, dinner and a beer/wine, movie)
2. LONGer drive, 5x a week. So if I compare that to 2 or 3x a week driving back to suburbs after going out, latter doesn't seem as bad. But no, it's summer, I've spent almost all my life in this house during summers, and it's time I "break free." I will aim to leave work before 4:45 everyday, which would get me downtown (apt) before 5:30 (don't know traffic situation yet). I have up to six hours then to have dinner, do social things.
So, more for gas money and more mileage on my car. Would be nice to carpool with someone but the fact that I am an employee "on the clock," I can't risk being late anymore. It's also not at all guaranteed I can leave work right at 4.
3. Can't rely on parents for support as they won't physically be there. Of course, I can drive there

Former coworker encouraged me I'm not being silly for wanting to move out, just to do research and plan budget.

I like sleuthing. I like to get an idea of a potential roomate. One guy stated he's vegan. Then I see his Fbook photo.. lots of tattoos and what I hope is not a nose ring. I can deal with tattoos but not so much gauged ears.
The other ad I replied to, they didn't say which gender. Now it seems they're both guys! oh well, I'll see.

Munday

I had to deal with concert tickets on sale today.. really dislike it. Felt malaise overall about job again and somewhat felt like leaving or putting in 2 weeks' notice and getting at job at Staples temporarily.

Finally got my mom's Tupperware back from a bake sale I volunteered for months ago.

The "Hot Mama" bread I gave my mom yesterday was good. When I came home from volunteer mtg, I chowed down not knowing she was asleep on the couch. Funny when that happens. She liked the table runner I gave her. It was only $1.50! No design, just powder blue.

Tomorrow and Wed are business casual days at work. I told myself, "3 days of waking up early, then 2 days of respite."

My thoughts feel disjointed. I want a plan in life. Is doing Myers Briggs test again going to help me figure that out? j/k.

Mother's Day

I didn't think yday but only this morning about making breakfast in bed for my mom. I feel I'm a little old for that. My sister has her friend over for a sleepover. I woke up around normal time as of late (~6:30) then went back to sleep.
I only have 3 vacation days.. I took 1 for French film festival. Another, I thought I'd go to DC for a book lecture but it was a friend's bday, so worked. The other 2, don't recall. They accrue over time. Would be nicer to start a new job with at least 1 week upfront so I may take a proper vacation somewhere. And with new job, no more of this every other weekend crap. I guess if it were a job involving travel (most likely local), I'd have to travel on weekends occasionally like a friend of mine does.

I want gumption, ha.

Went to Asian festival in its last hour last night. Recognized a guy from high school at the Cambodia food table. I had seen him at the post office a while back. I thought of saying hi but I think we had no classes together, don't know his name. My friend was there but we kept playing phone tag. She was with her 2(?) yr old niece, who I thought was cute. She turned to me and said something in Vietnamese, at which my friend reminded her I don't speak that. The acupuncturist I saw last year and who I emailed this week about my "mystery" bottle of pills from China called my name and encouraged me to buy some Chinese food. They were about to wrap up. On stage, there were Phillipino dance (I liked), Japanese traditional music, and kung fu performances. I hadn't seen kung fu since the show I saw in Beijing and briefly an instructor at the gym in China during an event.

Today is Russian (and former USSR) Victory Day. I may go to a celebration with Russian dance, song, and food.

Oh, completely forgot the reason I wanted to write here. I was surprised to come home to a medium-sized package from China yesterday. I knew a former colleague was sending me something but not that much nor priority! She spent almost $40 to send that weight and priority! :/ Part of what made it heavy is the aloe gel that comes with the milk tea that I requested; forgot that came with it, or I would have said that part's not necessary. She also threw in some snacks like "French cake," corn shaped gummy (not sure I like), and chicken feet (I will hide in my mom's gift as a surprise).

She sent a good variety of milk tea including some I didn't try 2 years ago: natural "relish," taro (glad she sent this, as it's not common here), wheat, "green," and one with the dried pearls. I feel so lucky. Dan from China wrote that he doesn't recommend eating it since China doesn't have a good record of food safety. Yes, well, there were things I didn't trust there but I kinda went with "ignorance is bliss." She spent so much money, and the fact it was sent from a fellow American, I feel I can trust it.

I so need to move out

Living with my sister.. I've just had enough. This is definitely where our 7 yr age difference is too much.

My friend's brother, who I could almost call my brother except I somewhat crushed on him, said hi to me on Fbook. I asked if he knew anyone needing a roommate, and he re: he does; in fact, two. It might be strange living with him. I'd prefer to live with a female, I think. Not sure it's the safest neighborhood. I went there 1x a few yrs ago.

I know a student who says she has a room free until late July, central location. That might be nice. Will see if I can see it soon.

Hump day

I actually dislike that term but it is Wednesday. Doesn't really apply in that I'm off today. I met with a workforce counselor on the Southside of the city. Felt like a spoiled, rich girl walking in there. Most people in there are out of work and probably don't have college degrees. The guy probably doesn't usually help people in my situation. He's going to make some contacts to put me in touch with.

I am tired because it's hot and I stayed up until 1:30am talking to Sasha on Skype. I love how it sounds like the person is right there. She thinks of studying in France this fall for a year or more-- I could visit her next spring! I forgot I told my Norwegian friend I'd like to visit him on such European trip but reminded me Norway's expensive everywhere ; /. I'd really be doing Norway (or at least, Trondheim) on a shoestring! There are 3 possible people to visit in Germany. I know 1 the most. Germany doesn't hold much appeal for me but it is such a big country, and by golly, those Krauts (derogatory?) speak excellent English!

Have to prioritize: I somewhat regretted from my year in France not making it to Spain, and Germany, a little. Looking at the map, one of the friend's cities isn't too far from Amsterdam, which I've heard is a must-see. I could be there when the tulips are in bloom! But now I think I'm talking a mucho expensive budget and timeline. I want to go to Southwestern France, particularly the city Biarritz, a coastal town. From there could make my way into Spanish Basque country. I would be staying at hostels, of course, when not with friends. And cheap meals, if not, going to the grocery store and eating in a parc, weather permitting. I could meet some awesome ppl along the way. Was talking to Sasha how travelling alone opens you up to meeting ppl; in a way, you're more approachable. I think I'd want to travel in Spain with someone, however. Amsterdam, too; think it'd be safer and more fun. Sasha would be in Grenoble, which is near Geneva, which I've already seen and don't care to again. Speaking of which, I should write the woman there I know. She was so hospitable. I met her in Czech Republic on a tour to Karlsbad. Oh, we shall see. I've decided even if I have to put some of this on my credit card, it would be worth it. One must take advantage of connections before the link is weakened by time.

I need a group sport

My suit pants that I finally got hemmed are a little tight (they were roomy when I bought them). UGh!

I am 25!!!

I had a pretty good bday: nice weather, spent with friends and family.

I could go into detail but am tired. I ended up going out last night. Ironically, I had poured myself (and parents) a glass of champagne with a strawberry, thinking, "If I'm staying in on a Saturday night (before my birthday), I may as well have champagne." I had a sip when I realized a friend wanted to take me out for my bday, which was nice. 3 guys (her friend, his brother and friend) joined us. I wanted an apple martini but they don't make that. I don't know what I ended up getting but it wasn't strong. The guys offered me bday shots. I said anything but tequila which he didn't understand. I said I was afraid it'd make me sick so didn't take it. Just as well. I got less than 6 hrs of sleep and was running late in my picnic preparation.

My grandma thought I was turning 26. I hope some things will be more (positively) advanced by then, like career path and a relationship.

I got my "China fix" today at "Arts in the Park". Talked to a painter from Hong Kong and bought a print to give a friend for her bday. Bought a photo from a guy who lives in China most of the time (his wife is Chinese). I didn't write down the name of the place where the photo is taken but it's a southern province that I didn't go to, maybe Yunnan.

Saturday before my 25th

I like that I get greetings from people in China before others due to the time difference. One was from this kid I never met.. I think he had seen me on myhappyplanet.com and contacted me on Skype. He's closer to my sister's age than mine. I like looking at his travel photos (in China). Another Chinese friend emailed me with the photo taken of me 2 years ago at Yellow Mtn (where "Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon" was filmed). I had cake for breakfast, a little one with purple icing. They asked the restaurant for a knife to cut with, and I was handed a chopping knife. So it's kinda scary, me wielding the knife. haha.

For some reason, I thought of Hohhot in Inner Mongolia today at work when I had finished most of my tasks. A Google image search produced one of a camel, which I thought of emailing as a random photo to my coworker, adding "This (of all photos) reminds me I need adventure in my life again."

Took a bike ride this evening. Was cutting it close in terms of it getting dark.

My first Saturday night free (I have Sunday morning off, unlike my schedule every other week from now on), and I am without plans. It's annoying to come up with people to contact who might have something going on.. there I go complaining. At least I make the effort, am persistent, right? :) That's my new word for my job search now that one significant part of my job is improved: persistence.

I feel so lucky right now that the evening shift is behind me. If fired, so be it. I will make do with lower-paying temp job if needed and buy a health insurance plan with a Health savings account (I know my options now after meeting w/ a professional).

There are amusing moments at work. Yesterday I was called a "womanizer" by my somewhat flamboyant male coworker. (Believe me, he's confused words worse) This was a result of him trying to jokingly insult me because I ran out of time to help him on something. Then today my older, raunchy South Asian coworker was introduced to Easy Mac thanks to me offering it. She said, "When my husband gets back from his month of work in Asia, this is what I will make him."

Concert

I went to a concert at a venue downtown I'd never been to. I went with a friend of an acquaintance who I found attractive enough to Fbook request when I met him. He said I could come over beforehand, that he had food. I figured his friends might, too. No, just us, and I had little to say at first! He had made Thai soup the night before and gave that to me with some bread, which was nice. He has a somewhat high, soft voice, which I know now I don't find attractive.

We walked to his friend's apt, and they drove us to the concert. I get social anxiety and briefly panicked (almost said outloud, "I don't know where I put my ticket." (Was in my back pocket) There was another band opening, a British woman who sounded like Amy Winehouse! She said 2x (when I could understand her) that she sounded "fucking terrible tonight." I want to find out her name. After her few songs, we went upstairs. The guy and I discovered we feel the same way about musicals: annoying and unnecessary. He's better at keeping a conversation going (more years of experience). Went downstairs, and it was a while before Citizen Cope played. I only knew one of his songs.

I had been nursing a gin and soda. (I like the word "tonic" and accidentally said "tonic and soda" to the bartender. What with social anxiety, it could have not had alcohol, and I wouldn't have known! not really, but funny thought). I saw the guy put his arms around his female friend and realized "ok, they are more than just friends." That's what I questioned from the start. Well, I've only seen them 2x. When I'm with a guy, especially alone, who I find attractive, it's hard to not just act friendly. Oh, I just need more socialization, in general, which ppl with common interests. I talk about some work things a bit and probably sound unhappy, bitter, which isn't cool. I felt a little awkward about this coupling but I was realistic for the most part that this guy and I weren't compatible; I just found him attractive when he was inebriated when I first met him!

I danced more the 2nd half of the show, mainly after playing the song I knew, which I love. We were fairly close to the stage. There was a drunk group of ppl near us, as well as some grinding HSers. I didn't realize, but this singer is known for smoking a lot of pot.

Agh, just lost a paragraph! I usually do C and P but it deleted it.
From memory: So, yay, I went out and got to know some ppl better. I'm slowly but surely determining my preferences in men (my mom jokes I'm so picky, I'll have a hard time finding one.) I like a guy who's a good listener and isn't generally checking his iPhone often; I don't want to have to guess he gets what I'm saying. There was some closure: when one communicates virtually more than directly, it's a harder/slower process to figure whether or not they are a possibility. And considering I'm kind of young in a lot of ways, I think 31 is too old for me. ~~My mom wanted to know who I was going with and when I didn't want to disclose, ("just ppl I know"), she said, "I know, it's the old guy." I heard that and thought someone in his 40's. She remembered when this guy and the 34 yr old acquaintance were going to meet up with me and my sis, and I thought it so funny my sis would hang out with men twice her age! I expressed that my sis may not prefer that!

This is stuff I would normally write in my journal but I felt like typing, and I guess, sharing.

I don't know how to find a job

If only only could "shop" around for one.

I don't like idle time at home. I need to move out but it scares me at the same time.

1st day of day shift

This always happens.. I think of things to write in my blog but when I'm actually on the site, ready to type, I don't feel like writing much.

Basically, it was a busy Monday, and I came home a bit stressed, my insides feeling compressed, and telling my mom and sis, "NOW I really want a new job."

My day off this week changed, which works out: my mom and I will go to Costco to buy baguettes and cheese for my Sunday bday picnic. Good news there: a coworker was able to swap with me. I will work 3 Saturdays in a row but it's daytime so doesn't matter.

When I told my mom I plan to go to New Haven, CT again (last time was after graduation 3 years ago) for my senior's bridal shower end of summer, she didn't think I should make the expense since I've been talking of moving out. I argued that it's important to me and I haven't made any travel plans for this year, yet.

My Ghanian coworker jokingly called me a "traitor" when he arrived at work today because I've switched shifts. I'm "no longer (his) favorite." He told a coworker my age he's "lost his only daughter." (work daughter, that is, because he has a daughter in London) He seemed a little hurt he "was the last to know" when really, I didn't tell anyone. I'd be curious to hear all the talking behind my back from female coworkers, but at the same time, whatever. I ran into a French acquaintance and told her about this situation: she said, "Be like a Parisienne." (ie, f 'em)

Want I want for my bday..

is an apartment, to move out of my parents'.

I have felt so anxious these last few days. I want some quiet. I want the TV on only when I want it on. I don't like the unnecessary noise.

Lazy Friday and Wine Outing

What did I do today? Well, I woke up before 9am, which is good. I talked to my dad, who's been sitting in bed b/c he had surgery for his hernias. TMI?

I logged onto work email for the first time from home today! The only reason I did was so that I could see my coworker's reply (even though I asked he text me) to me wanting to switch my bday with him. Alas, he can't, nor can the other day shift French-speaker because, believe it or not, his wife's bday is the same as mine! So I think I'll end up working on my bday (which is to be expected in one's life, just not so much on a Sunday) and pushing my picnic to the following Saturday.

I got a nice bday postcard offering a free entree and dessert from the Indian resto today. :) I don't even remember disclosing that to them.

Get annoyed when I share happy/amusing things from my day by text and don't get a reply. I like recognition that it was received and is somewhat appreciated that I do share such things. Maybe I'm being touchy.

Separately) I texted V today while waiting for a friend to show up at a winery soiree, "I had a sudden thought, that I thought I would have more figured out by now: career, local friends, love interest. I don't regret it, it's just funny."

I met people from Puerto Rico 2 Fridays in a row.. interesting. Last week was the work study student in the President's office, who I later was able to pick out in the dance concert on stage. Tonight was a woman who's been here over 6 mo. The friend I met up with at the winery has been in Richmond less than 2 years, so meets ppl thru meet-up.com. I feel somewhat funny when I talk to these non-locals who join the group b/c they don't know ppl here, and I say "Yeah, I've been here most of my life." But at the same time, it's totally fine, because it's hard to find one's niche after college, especially at one where you make friends from different parts of the country."

5K walk at 8...

I'm free!

Last night was my last of working nights-- yipppeeee!

Will write in one sentence: My sister seriously needs a wake-up call, and it can't come from me because she won't listen to us.

Off to yoga, I hope..

Shopping

Uh, so no "job" progress today other than calling the recruiter and being told to call back tomor. ...That's what I did last Monday and didn't get thru to them. Is that just the usual rigamarole they tell clients? I hope not. Meeting with health insurance guy Tues to discuss if I were to fund my own. I feel it's not so necessary to meet right now, given I will be working days and feel my job security has improved. Meeting could be done next week, but whatev, get it done.

I went to Macy's Clinique to get the gift set promotion but I didn't go in time.. it stopped 2 weeks ago. It's right near my house but I don't go that way to work and didn't consider it a priority. I did get a sample of clarifying lotion, which is very tingly! I bought some "Jezabel" earrings as my mom would say, candelbra-style, silver and green. They were almost $20 but I don't have many "bold" new earrings; bought as early bday prez to myself in hopes of a social life soon :). Also bought a pair of jeans which I had been needing. I gained weight, which sucks, but there are worst things.

Citizen Cope, whose name I discovered today but whose song I've heard the radio for a few mo, is playing in Richmond next week, the first week of my freedom! I emailed some local friends asking if they want to go. The email functioned more as an announcement to those whom I hadn't already told, that I will work days. Not sure anyone will want to go. Guess I could bring my sis if she isn't working and/or cares to go. She was mad she couldn't go to concerts this wkend. --- This is where I coulf vent again how I don't understand her laziness and lack of motivation but I'm going no farther than that.

It's confirmed

My boss reminded me by email that I will receive a $1 less per hour because I lose the evening shift differential. It sucks that I should lose $ after (more than) putting in my time at the crappy shift, but when it comes to it, what's $35 a week to having the opportunity to see LIFE?

Need to register for a 5K walk next week. 8am race is a good start to my transition to waking up earlier. Last night my coworker asked if I wanted to go the brewhouse near work, trying to be considerate since I don't live downtown. I didn't see how that'd work given he had driven the other coworker. Then that one invited me to a keg party (I heard "cake" party and joked I hear what I want to hear). I said no, that I had been in Lynchburg and didn't want to exhaust myself. They teased me that I'm old. Yes, it was a Saturday night, but I aim to wake up before 10am this week to accomplish stuff and adjust my sleep cycle; they have no idea I will be switching. As for the "friend" who also got a better shift (twice before me in considerably less time), not sure I'll enjoy working 6 (compared to 4) hours with her. I don't want to have a grudge against her, though; helps neither of us.

I think it definitely says something that since this shift job, I sometimes confuse the verbs "work" and "live" and have said "roommates" instead of "coworkers." Ugh, no more.
Mid-day at the Y, I will do Zumba.

Break out the champagne!

So it's not yet confirmed but my coworker saw a paper on the work printer that said I will be working 8-4pm starting April 25! This is what I've wanted for so long! This is SUCH a great way to go to Lburg. I felt a little blue to think I would see profs and friends again and not be able to say any progress on my job search. It's not optimal (same job) but considerable improvement. Then I thought how things will change. I will actually eat dinner with my family although they don't really eat together anymore b/c my Dad comes home late :/. I can take my sister to work. Yes, it's unfortunate she's about to graduate and still doesn't have her license but my parents don't have as much money now, and she hasn't shown responsibility. How is it we are so different! And yet, she is sometimes wiser than me. In my defense, I haven't been in the best frame of mind since this job.
I will be able to go out. Heck, I can date! One sucky thing is that I will still have to work every 2 weekends, so can't stay out late those Fri and Sat. But now, hopefully, I will have a more regular group of ppl to hang with and meeting more frequently is much more important to me than staying out all night.

Oh, I am so happy. I know I can't slacken on my job search; au contraire. I must always remember they can terminate me at any time (and I want to move on from this job). This next week will be a big push while I am still free during business hours.

Impetus

I need some momentum like whoah. I get spurts of it occasionally but it goes away quickly. Feel I'm doing everything else besides looking for and applying to jobs. The internet can be such a time waster. I feel it's mainly trying to keep social ties that eats a lot of my time.

Today at Old Navy saw someone I knew since middle school. She married her high school sweetheart, and they have a 5 mo-old daughter. I know 50+ yrs ago (and in many cultures now), it's normal to have kid in early 20's. But what with 4 year college and figuring out one's career, 25 and under just seems young to me. Maybe it's also that my mom didn't have me til 32, and my sis at 39. She said she didn't want to wait that long to have me.

Guess I still have medicine withdrawal because I've had headaches off and on last few days. I'm grateful I've never had a migraine but hate headaches. I'm a wimp when it comes to pain!

Oh, I need a freaking rain location for my bday! (since I plan to have a picnic) It's less than 3 weeks away.

DC visit

Usually I bring a travel journal with me to note things that happened but I was there but 24 hours with little downtime. It was lovely weather.

As a side note, my coworker next to me laughed at something I said yday and said "You crack me up. It's good to have you back." That was nice to hear :), although I want out of that workplace ASAP.

Monday Monday

I was going to post that song by Mamas and Papas on Fbook but then thought, "That doesn't even apply to me." (Given I worked the last 4 days)
Went for (a) drink 2 nights in a row. Sat night with someone who works upstairs, Liz. I clocked out right at 12:00 (good for me, considering I had left 1am and 12:30am the nights before) but Liz was on a call. We left the building about 12:30 but my coworkers reminded me, it would have taken that much time to get downtown. I had a hibiscus French-Canadian beer meaning "God of the sky." Not bad. More expensive than I usually pay but Capital Ale house has such an extensive beer selection, and I don't go out much, I wanted to treat myself.

Last night it was my 2 coworkers and me at Bamboo (versus the usual Avalon where they tend to start with champagne). I limited myself to one Purple Haze (raspberry beer) because I had eaten lightly that night and needed to drive 20+min back. My coworker gave me directions how to get back to my friend's house but I forgot L or R at one part so turned on the GPS (which I had just put in the car yday). It told me different directions (ie, take toll hwy). It was a 25cent toll, and there was red light, but I didn't see the coin collection box. Hopefully I won't get a notice/ fine later stating, "you skipped the 25c toll;" that would suck. When I got back, I knew I wanted mozarella sticks (that I had had the night before) because I was a little hungry, and we had talked of and seen pizza at the bar. To my annoyance, the cats had peed on the carpet again! ugh. Separation anxiety, I guess.

I went home yday and had lunch with the fam. I needed to check college documents to send to a recruiter. She called this morning to say the company desires someone with more experience. darn!
So today (relatively soon), I need to go home to finish my taxes.

I spoke Chinese in my dream Sat night. Don't remember the situation but I simply asked if a guy was Korean or Chinese. I was told something I didn't understand and assumed it meant he was Cantonese. ha.

St Pat's!

Sunny day. I treated myself to a pepperoni pan pizza (gave Mom the last slice); I was ravenous!

Taxes are so not getting done today (aka, before I housesit for 1.5 weeks). Maybe I'll come home next Monday when my dad's home so he can look it over before I submit.

Tuesday was good

Why did Tuesday bring a better feeling? I got a wake-up call from a recruiter who had received my resume and asked me to come in today, that she might have something. My dad said, "They say that, to get you to come in." But she actually did have a company in mind, for my French skills. She'll contact them tomor, so it's not definite of course they have an opening, but I'm to send some English and French writing samples (from college).

Also, it was beautiful weather today.


The VCU summer/fall schedule came out yday. I wrote my boss tonight at work with dates, days of week and times of courses I'd like to take this summer. I realized they are intensive sessions and broken into halves, which reinforces that I should just be moved to day shift.

NoVA

I'm once again in Northern Virginia and am reminded how I have little desire to live/work up here. The traffic alone is enough to deter me. I didn't go to the job fair yesterday because it was closed after 11am (3 hrs open) due to max capacity! So I stopped in Stafford (confusing it with Surrey, famous for their peanuts) and found nothing. Then Prince William Nat'l Forest.. hiked, which was good! Then drove around a lot which wasn't cool. Ok, 3 trips to NoVA, all involving get lost.. I AM getting a GPS when I get back.

I don't know my plans tonight, it's my night off. Oh, there's salsa downtown but I don't want to see (or dance with) the guy who asked me to dinner.

My dad prepped me yday on what to tell recruiters about myself, although looking at the companies that will be present at today's fair, they don't have many international ties, it seems.

It's good to be up early (and go to bed earlier), which was only possible because I didn't work last night and was in a different house than my own. I'm so glad I chose to sleep downstairs because my friend's little girl woke up after 3am and cried for an hour apparently. I didn't hear it at all, slept very soundly :). I got to hold Caitlin (that's her name) before they left. I was amazed at my friend's ability to juggle work and a child 4 months ago, and I still am!

Moving on

My married best friend sent me an article from a local paper about the "quarter-life crisis." It's written by a woman who lived downtown, had a relationship, kind-of fell apart after it, and has gone to live with her parents again in her mid-20's. She sends the message that due to the economy, more and more young folks are moving back home temporarily. Last week I was surprised when a 31-yr old guy acted like it was cool I'm still living at home, that it's smart. I was happy to hear this from someone I liked. But then after realizing the guy I pursued wasn't a good match, my hope went away, and I felt "bad" again for still being stuck in this boring job and undesirable shift and living at home (even though the pursued guy is 4 yrs older and still living with his rents!).

Anyway, I was happy yesterday to get an email from a Chinese friend who travelled with me and 2 others on my birthday 2 years ago. I'm flattered he asked for my email from our mutual friend because he can't write on Facebook. He or someone chose his English name to be "Zephyr!" It was really good to hear from him.

Oh, dash it all

I want to vege and watch movie upon movie.. if I had my own place. An alumna who I visited for lunch yesterday asked me to watch her place for almost 2 weeks. She lives about 20 minutes from me, so would be a longer commute. Her one cat is nice enough, Chocolate Mousse, but boy, did I wear the wrong combination of clothes: brown corduoroy pants and a dark purple shirt. I had to "roll" myself before leaving. After leaving I thought, "I don't want to housesit farther from things/people for that long, will be lonely." And yes, it may well be, but it also may be good for me, to have my own space. Training for moving out, which I hope to do in the next few months.

I thought my neighbor was going to call me today. I asked him if he could tell me about Passover, especially in Russian, since he is Jewish and speaks the language.

The title refers to my date. It's bittersweet: I realized we probably aren't compatible (we have the same birthday, after all!) but I'm glad that I know this now rather than later. I do regret a bit the time "wasted" thinking about him (because I was just so smitten when we met, and things took forever to materialize, so there was a lot of anticipation on my end). I hope he grows up soon (not for me, but just in general). It's strange: I know I can be insecure around the opposite sex, but it's weird to see an (older) guy be the same way. When we parted, he offered a hug like usual and said maybe we'd see each other soon. I was going to say, "Yes, if you invite me to do something." (In all fairness, he did invite me our last meal together but it was something we had discussed when we met, so I figured it was a given.)

I came home and announced the "news flash" to my mom and sis (and later my dad); how annoying it is to tell things singly! Ate half a box of dark chocolate-covered raisins that I bought the other day in anticipation of the French film festival at the end of the month. I got my pass in the mail today, despite not having sent "proof" of my student status yet. I am set! Contemporary French novel by my bedside and pass for a weekend full of French film-viewing. LSAT guy asked what I read, and I said I currently have different language books by my bed, including a 17th(?) century one about a younger man and an older woman and back and forth and how I think "Just do it!" ha. The guy is actually pretty smart.. I felt less smart around him. He reads foreign policy and techie mags and can enjoy eating alone. Sure, I can eat a meal alone but not make a habit out of it. I think he's a loner, which is something I don't understand. I guess a "warning" could have been there when we met, that he said he has wanderlust and likes to move. And tonight, he's thinking of teaching English in Cambodia. Well, that's great, but he's approaching 30.. I don't know, I just felt some of the English teachers I met in China were losers, like they couldn't quite get by in North American society. I probably sound judgemental. Ugh, I feel yucky and don't want to go out but it's a coworker's bday, and I bought her a funny card and won't see her tomor.

Comings and goings

Not sure what my title signifies.
Ugh, why am I telling so many people I have a date today? Because I feel the need to verbalize my emotions, of course. I had to ask him out because he's shy. I guess something can be said, that I know what I want and look how to make it happen. They teach us to be proactive at my work, ha!
Seriously need an exercise class.

Day off

Richmond is small, I've written before, but I like it. Example tonight was that I saw a guy I met 2 weeks ago (who I liked) at the Uni Richmond cultural event. I'm glad I saw him and sat with him and his friend, because I came alone and feel anxious when so.

Who would have known publishing that I paid off my car loan would sollicit so many "likes?" ha. And the funny thing is, I haven't technically yet. I called the bank last week and asked them to mail me a letter with final amount, which of course is accruing 22cents a day. I was about to pay via phone but there's a $17 service charge! Forget that. $1,000 snail mail check.

Maybe I write here too often for my own good.. can't decide.

Wanted to express, "Why didn't I start a savings earlier?" (since college) It's nice to see the nest egg for future rent/travels. Goal this week is to not go to the grocery store at all. No take-away food either. If I eliminate those, I'll save money by eating out of my parents' pantry (because they've said there's no need for me to buy extra food).

French film

Just bought my pass to French film festival next month! Need to send photocopy of my student ID.

Yday, wearing my clover earrings, I learned I have St Patty's as a scheduled day off! What luck is that? :) Thought I would keep my red silk duvet on my bed for the month of Feb but decided to change to moss green one in light of springy weather and upcoming holiday.

A friend thanked me for sending her and her daughter (belated) bday presents. She said her daughter tried to feed Jello to the CareBear I sent; cute!

Sunny Friday

2 Fridays off in a row! I hope to go dancing tonight because I didn't really get to last Saturday, not a good dancing space. Next Sat I have an 80's bday party that was originally supposed to be last month but was postponed due to weather. Now fewer people will be able to come.

Yday I emailed LSAT guy, even though I didn't want to have to "set up" next date; however, with my schedule, one has to plan ahead to take advantage. Then I somewhat regretted my forwardness. He replied he takes practice LSAT my night off then dishwashing at a restaurant that night. I knew he worked in a resto but not dishwashing. He's a smart guy, just humble occupations for now until law school! He's free next Sat (when I have the party). It will be an early party, little to no alcohol, so I wrote I may be back in Richmond by 10pm, we'll see. Now I'm remembering my pessimistic attitude about dating; the logistics of meeting up can be so tedious! But, of course, if it's the right person, it can be worth the effort.

Whoah, I am so glad I keep my mouth shut sometimes! I think I knew this before but was reminded, if a woman breaks up with a guy, don't say something like, "I didn't really like him anyway," because she may well regret that decision, still love him, and be distraught that he won't reply to her msgs of "I'm sorry, I made a mistake." This happened to my coworker the last 2 nights. So I think it was good timing for me to have planned a "meat malbec" marathon. I bought both the boxed wine and cuts of steak. Buying meat is so intimidating! (For a former vegetarian who still doesn't cook it) If I dated this guy, would be nice if he cooked and/or showed me how!

Lunch

Wow, some people really don't change, do they? I decided to write someone who I've pretty much stopped communicating with, and as usual, when asked how I am, I write a paragraph and get no reply. Hate that. I thought of writing in French, which this person understands, "Now I remember why I stopped talking to you." There's no point in talking or typing a lot if the person doesn't care enough to reply. Waste of effort.

So I asked my coworker last night about guy I'm seeing today. Am glad I did because she told me a bit of his history, which explains somewhat his behavior.

I learned a lesson last night at work in discretion. Oh, it sucks.

Going to meet my Cuban Spanish tutor tomor! He's a VCU student. Need to brush up on the Spanish I learned last summer. I told myself I would do that but never did-- just dislike reading in general as of late, such a solitary thing.

It's Mardi Gras! Laissez les bons temps rouler..

mid-Feb

My gosh, I had a 3-day weekend and did almost nothing for job search. What did I do? Social lunch, a little shopping, brownie making and dropping off, watching Olympics. Yday, was kinda glum. Finished watching the British comedy series, dropped my sis off at work, ran very briefly, jumped on trampoline, watched part of "The Science of Sleep" and "Down with Love." Picked up sis and went out for a friend's bday. I saw his friends who I hadn't seen in a LONG time. There's an elderly gay guy I enjoy talking to, like a father figure. Bday guy told me to mingle, so I joined a group of mainly guys.

There was an attractive Asian guy but didn't talk to him much b/c I wasn't sure if he was with a woman there. I had my one limit gin and soda and joked he should buy me a drink, which, surprisingly, he did. I told the guys I was talking to (and it was noticeable) that I unfortunately become quiet after drinking. So whatever "bubbliness" I had at the beginning went away when the alcohol set in. The cran vodka given to me (with happy V day wish) was the last thing I needed, so I took a few sips, put it down, a few more, down again. He saw I was hardly drinking it and took it to finish himself, which I'm glad of. When I got home, I thought, "I didn't thank him for the drink" (and I hate being rude, when my mom really did teach me manners), so I waited until the morning to write him on Fbook. He just wrote back, "You're welcome!" and friend requested me. Then, what do I see? He was 1,400 friends! Lordy. He has a good 6+ years on me and a lot more socialization in his time, but lordy! Must say, a turn-off.

Think tomor I'm going to wear a new short-sleeve sweater and blazer tomor to eff with management a little, make them think I'm interviewing. My dad said it's a tactic he's pulled in his career. Just don't know what pants to wear with since it's not a set..

LSAT guy wrote me at gmail, as I requested (don't want to log onto Fbook so much). He made an immature comment about the noodle place we'll go to. Def not as excited about this "date" as I would have been 3 weeks ago. Maybe he's not dating material.. maybe I should just be friendly, although that's hard when you're really attracted to the person.

Olympics!

So exciting! I'm glad it's in Canada. Sometimes I find the cultural/nostalgic stories in the Olympics annoying but enjoy learning about Canada. I didn't know there is an Alert, Nunavit, just 500 miles from the northpole. It's the northernmost populated place in the world.. 5 people!

Today I went to Mekong with Scottie, a RM alumna 15 years older. I'm glad I connected to her on LinkedIn; we get along fairly well. She said her sibling is also about 7 years younger than her. We've only had lunch 2x but she asked if I might want to housesit when she goes to the beach next month. She has 2 cats who who are brats but her babies, including a half-Siamese named 'Chocolate mousse."

After lunch, I went to Kohl's to buy the lipstick a coworker told me is long-lasting. $12 is a little expensive, I think, but if it lasts... The store employee gave me samples of products since I wasn't familiar with them. She said they're made by Estee Lauder (and a lot cheaper!). I also bought a sky blue bead necklace (nice with my eyes) and a "ruby" diamond-shaped earring and necklace set. I thought, "No one's buying me jewelry for Valentine's, may as well look good and buy some for myself." I must admit, the lipstick purchase is partly in anticipation of a date.. and by golly, am I impatient. I need some communication here. I wrote 2 msgs this week to guy on Fbook, agreeing to get Vietnamese pho soup, and wanted to write today, "Can you just call or text me when you're done with the LSAT?" I talked to a friend 2 days ago about the situation, and she said men have gotten so lazy with communication. Facebook, texting. Technology is distancing..

I didn't want to seem overeager to meet him but said truthfully that my schedule this weekend and next week are flexible. I probably won't hear from him til after Valentine's. Ugh, why am I so hung up on it? I guess because I was instantly attracted to him, liked his personality, and how cool is it we share our bday. But I also feel a bit neglected that more hasn't happened. Guess I expect too much and don't have enough going on in my life. I told myself I need a new job (or shift, but preferably new job) by the time I hit 80,000 miles on my car. (at 78,300 now) I also wanted to move out by 25 but there isn't really reason until I get a more satisfactory position.

Wintry mix ahead?

Calling for more inclement weather tomorrow. I wouldn't mind if I were paid to stay at the Hyatt again and get double wage.

The elation over my ample future paycheck due to this snow weekend was brought down today when I sat down and looked at the tasks I had to do (few and so menial). It's been this way for a while. I know a coworker didn't get the job she wanted in DC. She told me she's been applying to a lot of places.

Aim to do my taxes tomorrow or at least this week.

Reminded coworker that I'm off Wed, so she may arrange meet-up with LSAT guy. I'm almost apathetic about it now, though. Yes, he was studying for this all-important exam but why no contact when he supposedly liked me?

Fuck this job. Seriously.

Time goes by too quickly

My schedule, rotating 1 day off each week, doesn't help. When I realize, for ex, I last did this 5 months ago, etc, I'm dismayed how time flies. But maybe I'm too hung up on it. I just know that while I've been going to work, I haven't been terribly happy nor done much to get a new job. I know I've written that a lot. Want to get out of this rut.

3 more days

I'm being silly still, but subject reflects how long I have to "wait" for person I'm interested in to take LSAT and be "free." Actually, make it 4. I wouldn't ctc him the day after; seems desperate.

I friended him on Facebook after my best friend coaxed me. I thought maybe he wouldn't see the msg for a while, but he did and noticed we have the same bday: "You, me, and Red Baron." I thought the pizza but googling it, realized the actual Red Baron does share our bday. I knew David Beckham and the Rock share it and replied with that. He re: "Good company." (for real!) Meanwhile, I gave a coworker my phone # after talking to a friend/coworker, S, deciding, "What's the harm, if just friendly?" But then I'm asked out to dinner and a movie, and I don't want that. I agreed to dinner after 8pm Thurs; I had paid $15 for a monthly young professionals networking meet-up that's 6-8. I told him I didn't want to see a movie. Why did I listen to S?! She agrees it's gonna be awkward. My plan is to be casual and split the bill; he'll get the point. He's a really nice guy but I'm not attracted to him; I think our personalities are somewhat similar, and I kinda want someone different (but still interesting and nice, of course).

I'm quite prolific with this blogging lately. Yesterday thought, "I just may come into my own" (or whatever) this spring. This because I met a very interesting guy (that I'd like to think will develop but maybe not) and may possibly work day (NORMAL) shift. The latter's, of course, more important. The guy works shift similar to mine but then, he'll go off to law school somewhere in VA. And here's something that annoys me: I think I'm learning not to tell women friends who are more established in relationships, ie marriage, about my romantic developments. Because I think they want to live through their friends somewhat and expect things to go faster, tend to "think ahead" when those things may never happen. Like my friend said maybe I could move with him where he goes to school. Whoah, whoah. I haven't even had a date with him. (But I know I'm making a big fuss)

Ok, enough of that. I basically wanted to write it's annoying taking care of drunk people. I had to argue slightly with one tonight (it was her bday, too) because she was convinced she should meet up with people at another bar/dance space. But truth is, there wouldn't be many ppl on a Tues nite. I circled her place twice, then parking in a reserved spot briefly. She had lost her key, so we had to go around front and ring doorbell repeatedly for a roommate to let her in. Whew.

Snowed In

I made an apt at 11:30 (nothing serious) for tomor; hope I'll be able to get out of the cul-de-sac.

I got into a crappy mood last night when I realized the loads of strangers I had invited to connect to weren't all accepting my invites, which is legit, because I don't actually know them nor will probably meet them. I get a msg now when I try to connect to new people that I've almost reached my limit and would need to have people's email addresses in the future in order to connect! Hopefully there is a time factor and that could go away. So this realization reinforced the thought that my job searching is haphazardous .. I was trying to connect to a bunch of people with the mindset that "it's who you know." Then I reread my blog from 3 days ago and remember Dad thought I was doing well job search-wise (but the connections aren't working out as well as he thought). I told him how this week I was tired at work; this isn't uncommon but seemed more so this week. Possible the guy situation influenced that because I was so happy to meet him initially and thought some things would "start rolling" in my life and then standstill and not knowing if anything will result.

Being snowed in with my family who irritates me didn't help. I've got to learn to keep positive and not let their "lack of" bother me. My sister was talking on the phone with her friend at midnight and laughing loudly in the family room, which is under my parents' bedroom (one parent was still awake). She annoys me with her lack of consideration for family members. Since I started it, might as well go into other things that bothered me yday. My dad told me that he's handling my sis' laziness, to not write her notes. I don't like writing notes but she pisses me off when she doesn't clean our common space. I wanted to say to him that yes, he is the patriach, but if he could see it from my point of view, that she's being inconsiderate and disrespectful to her sister 7 years her elder. But then, I take things too seriously lately and seem to have a chip on my shoulder but in fact, they aren't worth stressing over.

Which leads to the last thing that came into factor yday, and it's going to really sound like the violin now, but I want my checking account to be higher! It was at a nice level a few months ago but that was before I paid for the laptop and tried to consolidate my car loans to pay them off faster. It's hard to feel optimistic about hopefully moving out soon when my account isn't where I'd like it to be. I did increase my college loan payment, which is good, and finally started a savings again.. this will be my France fund because I know I won't be able to go there this year. Where do the Swiss get their money? I talked to Viviane yday online, who I hadn't heard from in ages, and she wrote she and her friends are planning another trip to NYC in August!

Chinese Wal-mart, munchies, etc

Last night my goofy (only male since other was off) coworker said he was looking at French Wal-mart online for work. This prompted me to check out Wal-mart China which had a fun page since it's soon the year of the Tiger. I enjoyed looking at the "circulars," of many products I saw in supermarkets, like the lovely Lipton Bubble tea. I sent to a few female coworkers, actually ones with bfs, a screen shot of the ad for red men's underwear writing "Because you know he'd look cute in red boxers or briefs." Chinese New year starts Valentine's Day.. year of the tiger.

I want a dog so badly. I would take any medium-sized to small dog (big ones are smelly) but Schnauzers are ideal because they're what I know, are really cute, and don't shed. The dog we had til age 5 was a Schnauzer/poodle mix though didn't really look like it. He was "blond and brown;" really cute.

My dad said I'm making good progress on my job search, which is nice to hear, even if I'm not progressing as much as I'd like. I had a lunch date a week ago with a potential recruiter and haven't had another event in that time.. goes by quickly when working full-time.

I'm rather silly. You'd think I'd know by now, going on 25. I said to coworkers (handful of women and a bi guy) I suddenly wanted kung pao chicken, and that I've been craving things, like last night diet root beer and a jelly donut. Then I realized, well, duh, I started my period. When I said to my closest coworker sometimes craving things shows a lack in your diet, she joked "Lacking jelly?"

As to this coworker, who introduced me to cute guy, well, I had given her benefit of the doubt that she indeed passed on my # (and therefore, I wondered, even if he's busy studying/working, why hasn't he called?!) I told some people I hadn't heard, and they thought I could contact him. I explained I didn't have his #. And the reason she didn't offer it is that she herself didn't have it.. only her bf does. What rather annoys me is that her bf said to her (who said to me) how his friend seemed to really like me.. and yet he didn't pass on the goddamn # so we could make contact! Urgh. They went to Vegas for a long weekend but still, they're always texting/Twittering. A bit inconsiderate. A friend/coworker thinks still, some time has passed since we met (over 2 weeks), and the longer the time, the less the spark or at least remembering. But I feel this guy is somewhat introverted and doesn't meet a lot of chicks. That's just my hopeful thought. I do, however, agree that to be "pleasantly surprised" is better than being disappointed.

Spelling bee almost-champion

I was runner-up (2nd place) in the spelling bee at the bar last night! I didn't know how to spell this word: glockenspiel. I thought maybe it started "gloughen..." If I had won, the prize is a case of cheap beer, which I don't like nor would have use for since I live with my parents.

Funny thing at the bar last night: even though I don't "go out" a lot, I saw a few people I recognized there. It depends what kind of bar and people, but in general, I feel I would see familiar people if I went out more. It shows Richmond is somewhat small, but I think I like it.

Going out with coworkers has its benefits. I learned some info that seems hopeful that I could be moved to an earlier shift; however, this may not in fact be management's agenda or it could take a long time, so I should bust my ass all the more to get a better job. I said to my friend/coworker before going home last night that I definitely want a better shift/job by the summer. By the spring, of course, but ultimately the summer. Somewhat like I don't still want to be living with my parents at age 25 (soon approaching!), I'm telling myself I simply won't tolerate another summer like last because it was crap. Never again. Summer is supposed to be a time of fun, carefreeness (yeah, made it up) in the evenings, hanging with friends but I was stuck attached to a headset in a cold office building, lonely. (Should I get out my violin? lol)

oh, melatonin

I hate wasting/throwing away things that I know aren't good but at the same time aren't terribly bad; melatonin pills, for example. I took these every night for over a month 3 months ago, before I read one shouldn't take them regularly.

I took one last one despite getting headaches the last few times I've taken them.. no headache this time and I went to sleep considerably earlier than normal. Then I slept 10 hours, which I guess is fine since I'm recuperating from my 24 hr bug when I felt so incredibly lethargic, but still feel a little tired; getting a good amount of rest is fine as long as when feels refreshed afterward!

~~ (little later) Here we go again: at home with my sis (and my parents) on the weekend, and I am SO angry. It's been a month since she swept the bathroom floor. I remind her, which I shouldn't have to do, and she replies that she knows she needs to do it, yet does this make the process faster? Not AT ALL. I am SO tired of living with such a lazy ass. I don't know where her lack of responsibility comes from.. I can only put up with it a little longer. If a college friend needs to move out of her place by March, I would consider getting a place with her because.. words can't describe.. I simply need to get out of here. On my own (well, with housemates) where I can hopefully have a clearer mind and be more focused on my agenda, away from petty distractions that my family bring.

You can't say I don't make life interesting for myself..

Yesterday, due to confusion between LinkedIn, which has photos of people if they so choose, personal email, and masculine names for women, I was surprised that the Scottie I met for lunch turned out to be a woman! She's a Randy-Mac alumna, 15 years older, so it turned out well. We may meet again, and she may try to help me in my job search.
I don't remember the last time I felt so weak. I woke up feeling like I could throw up. I had wanted to go to the ball yoga class but decided to go back to sleep. Set my alarm because the community org person was going to stop by because I said I could donate craft supplies to the Children's museum. Had a nice long conversation with a Randy Mac friend, and though my stomach felt better, was still terribly weak, so slept for 3 hours. Didn't want to sleep too long and totally throw off my schedule.
I started using Facebook again a little. I like to update my status with random things sometimes. Chat is nice for a wider "audience," those who don't have Gmail.

Male ballet

Talk about gender-bending!

I saw this tonight http://www.trockadero.org , and luckily, our seats in the far right balcony were still good (better than back of the orchestra) because it's a small theater.
Let me tell you, it is too weird to see a package under a yellow tutu.

Frederick, MD

Another trip to DC, and what have I learned?
1. Def need a GPS
2. I like the store Filene's Basement
3. I'm not sure I want to live in DC area.. maybe I'm fine with Richmond for now while figuring out what kind of career I want!

I bought some brown corduroy pants at store mentioned above. I feel generally thin compared to college days on the terrible med but those pants showed me oh-so-well that I could afford to try jogging once a week and sit-ups, esp now that spring is approaching.
I went for a bike ride last saturday, and it was so pleasant. I felt optimistic about this spring.

Curious finding (stalking?) hehe

So I might have a date soon, which I'm really happy about. I'm a curious person and looked at the guy's Fbook page again and.... well, we have the same birthday! Is that not weird? Exactly 4 yrs apart. I suddenly thought, "That makes sense" in that he seemed somewhat introverted like me, that we have similar personalities. But then I thought, 'Maybe this isn't good." I know in Western astrology, they say certain signs are compatible. I don't believe in Chinese/Vietnamese zodiac, that people of the same birth year aren't compatible. Hm.. I think Donna would say I'm overthinking this. I'm amused, at any rate.

Friend's 25th

Tonight I went to a house party-- been a while! It was pretty fun but I felt a little more "forced" than my Monday night off this week when I met the hottie. There was Mexican food and two little dogs, a black poodle and a miniature Terrier, both in sweaters, running around. I didn't know a lot of people there (it was a joint bday party with guy I didn't know). I was amused when the cute guy from the YMCA showed up. He's married (and Republican). I talked to a Macedonian guy near the end who was funny. Speaking of the Catholic church, he said about the boys, "That's why they're there, to be touched!" I know, not PC AT all.
The tiramisu gelato I brought was popular. I forgot my friend is lactose-intolerant, but she had a bite. The cake was not cut (I cut it) until much later.
I was invited to go dancing (not at a club but a bar) and thought about it, but forget to google map directions from the person's house to downtown. I decided to stick to one place for the night, that it wouldn't be enough time. But I danced there. It started when this goofy-looking, long-faced guy said he would "pop lock and drop it." Next came Soulja boy's "Superman," which I enjoy. I heard/saw it in China almost 2 years ago. I felt a little sad that I haven't been to more fun house parties in that time. Then came the electric slide but not enough room. I decided to dance when they played the "Macarena." We even did a congo around the house with macarenas! I learned the song "Skanky leg." I was going to take video of it but a woman was dancing it in front of me. I have to say, the two of them dancing of it looked pretty hot, lol.
As for what I drank, I had tequila/grenadine punch (a bit sweet), a shot of patron (the lime was stuck in my teeth for a while), and some sparkling wine at the end. I thought I could come home and "study" (career books) like I said I would do Monday night, following cute LSAT guy's lead, but both then and now, feel too tired/unmotivated. I better tomorrow before work!
I went for a long bike ride today. Only two more days then I go to DC! Haven't lined up other biz contacts but may meet a HS friend. THere is a job fair the following week on my day off.