It didn't quite seem necessary, especially since it's a social portal for me in my isolated crap schedule, but I'm taking a break from Facebook (let's hope). I don't spend that much time on it, but I do log on 2-3 times a day sometimes and could be using that time for more productive things like finding a job.
Didn't figure out how to consolidate my numerous China albums.
1/8/10
1/5/10
Day off, and I need to get out of here
A good (for lack of better words) reminder of the weeks going by is changing the sheets on my bed every week. Yesterday was Monday, and they weren't changed. I can't believe it's already a week since I last heard my mom saying to put them in the wash. My dad says I shouldn't get upset when people ask me if I've found a job yet because I've been working full-time; the unfortunate thing is, I feel less productive when given spare time, because I feel isolated and need social interaction.
1/4/10
That was a strong last entry
It's possible my medicine makes me angrier, I don't know.
I'm amused "get-me-out-of-this-fuckhole" is part of the html address. ha!
My dream last night included the crush I had off and on from 7th grade to senior year of HS- so annoying! (In reality) I got up the courage to ask him to Hcoming senior year, calling him at home, and he said he actually had a girlfriend in another state. I think I believe him.. lol. I sat behind him possibly in both 10th and 12th grades because, sitting alphabetically, my last name was after his.
What did I like about him? He was smart and witty, to the point to being a bit cocky! He was cute, had a nice smile and voice.
I guess the funniest thing about the dream was, I almost told him, "This feels like déjà vu." Haha! We were in a classroom, except instead of an English teacher, it was my French middle school, and favorite of all time, teacher.
I'm amused "get-me-out-of-this-fuckhole" is part of the html address. ha!
My dream last night included the crush I had off and on from 7th grade to senior year of HS- so annoying! (In reality) I got up the courage to ask him to Hcoming senior year, calling him at home, and he said he actually had a girlfriend in another state. I think I believe him.. lol. I sat behind him possibly in both 10th and 12th grades because, sitting alphabetically, my last name was after his.
What did I like about him? He was smart and witty, to the point to being a bit cocky! He was cute, had a nice smile and voice.
I guess the funniest thing about the dream was, I almost told him, "This feels like déjà vu." Haha! We were in a classroom, except instead of an English teacher, it was my French middle school, and favorite of all time, teacher.
1/3/10
Get me out of this fuckhole
I lie in my bed, in my bedroom that I've been in for most of my life since age 7, and feel lucky that I am still able to live here with my parents. But I can't stand being around my sister and mother a lot of the time.. they just represent laziness and gluttony to me right now. Our dog died last year and to fill the void, and because she has no hobbies or friends, my mom watches cable tv a lot. I really don't get it.. how we've lived here 17 years, and she's made little effort to make progress in her life, make friends, or become active in the community. I don't want to blame her, but doesn't she realize that that affects her daughters negatively somewhat? One can argue I could be more persistent or whatever because of having a mother who has done little other than be a housewife at home most of the time, but I think it's held me back in some ways, because I didn't have a role model of a strong woman who could work and be active.
I'm bitter right now but it is how I feel; the sooner I get a better job and move out, I can move on with my life.
I'm bitter right now but it is how I feel; the sooner I get a better job and move out, I can move on with my life.
Linking
I need more connections!
I just wrote a local woman business owner who produces biodegradeable utensils but I wrote"recycled/recycable" when that isn't the case. Oops.
I just wrote a local woman business owner who produces biodegradeable utensils but I wrote"recycled/recycable" when that isn't the case. Oops.
1/2/10
Yay
I got THE last two tickets to the all-male ballet I wanted to see in 2.5 weeks. The seats aren't good but I'm still glad I'm going and was lucky to snatch the last ones!
Aww, my first-year Resident Assistant just said hi to me on Fbook. Makes me feel special when people from the past say hi.
This year has kind-of been an identity crisis because I've been at a job that isn't a good/fulfilling fit and don't know what I want to do career-wise. Add on top of that little social time due to the barbarian {I truly understand now why we outsource customer service jobs to India} 4-mid schedule.. but when I saw my 10th grade English teacher at the pub last night, an old French class classmate, and a former grocery store boss, I feel good that people remember me. Just like when I visited Randy Mac over a month ago, I remember that I do have roots, and people have supported me and wish me well.
Aww, my first-year Resident Assistant just said hi to me on Fbook. Makes me feel special when people from the past say hi.
This year has kind-of been an identity crisis because I've been at a job that isn't a good/fulfilling fit and don't know what I want to do career-wise. Add on top of that little social time due to the barbarian {I truly understand now why we outsource customer service jobs to India} 4-mid schedule.. but when I saw my 10th grade English teacher at the pub last night, an old French class classmate, and a former grocery store boss, I feel good that people remember me. Just like when I visited Randy Mac over a month ago, I remember that I do have roots, and people have supported me and wish me well.
1/1/10
Happy New Year! (and decade)
Do people write new decade resolutions? I thought about what I want to achieve before I'm 34.. not resolutions, but expectations for what I want to happen. I'd like to travel more (before being tied down with kids), have 1 or 2 fulfilling jobs, make a great social network of local friends to hang out with, get married to a nice (well, more criteria than that) man, and probably adopt a kid.
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